I started out the day yesterday feeling pretty darn good. Well enough, in fact, to do quite a bit of house work that had been needing doing. I had a doctor appointment at 3:00 p.m., to finish up my annual physical, at least the part that Dr. G., is in charge of. I still have to go for my mammogram next week.
Anyway, most days, if I know I have something I have to do in the afternoon, I take it very easy in the morning to conserve spoons. But I just felt so good yesterday, I knew I had a drawer full of spoons.
After I got the work in the house done, I took a shower and washed my hair, got dressed and made up (yeah, even makeup!) and then sat down to rest. Didn’t want to push it too much. I was still feeling good when it came time to go for my appointment; and I felt fine all through the visit with Dr. G. Even felt ok driving back home and doing a few leftover things in the house upon my return.
Jesse and I had a Sonic burger for dinner--and then it hit me. Complete and utter exhaustion. By 6:00, I was zonked out on the couch. I awoke about 10:00 feeling like I had been hit by a heard of buffalo, let Skipper out, and got ready for bed. I barely remember all that, although I know I let Skipper back in because he was on the bed when I awoke this morning. But I don’t remember brushing my teeth, putting on my PJs, or anything. I have rarely felt that level of exhaustion.
This morning is better, but not good. I had planned to use the entire day to finish readying my quilts for the quilt show. But I don’t think that’s going to happen.
But I am grateful for a good day yesterday. I was able to ask Dr. G., all the questions that I had for him. And we had a long and informative talk about fibromyalgia. He told me that doctors do not know what fibromyalgia is, if it’s one condition/disease or more than one, what causes it, how to treat it, or just about anything else about it except for the symptoms. He also poo-pooed those doctors who seem to believe it’s a mental problem, all in our heads.
Strangely enough, that talk made me feel better about my condition. At least now I know that there’s not something I’m missing here. There isn’t a doctor or a treatment or a drug or an herb or an incantation that I should be looking for that I haven’t found yet. Medical science, it appears, is just as clueless as those of us who suffer from this debilitating condition.
Happy to say, all my tests were good or pretty good. My thyroid is behaving, and all my other organs appear to be on the correct path. All I have to deal with is a mysterious condition for which there is no information and a back problem for which there is no cure. I tell myself there are many people with much worse problems. It doesn’t help my condition, but it does make me grateful for what I have.
But I tell you this: The next time I have a good day, I’m not going to waste it with housework and doctor appointments. I’M GOING TO SEW!
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On 05/19/2017, Sharon Morrison said ...
Decided to check in to some of my favorite blogs this morning, and you were on my short list. It is raining in Wichita this morning and we are under many storm warnings in Kansas. I want to go to McPherson today, and visit my Grans, but not sure the weather will allow it.
Love your quilts and your labels. I admire that you can stay on task and finish your projects. My thoughts are diligent, but my actions are waning.
Your Dr. is right about meds for Fibro. There just are not too many...that don't have big side affects. I am going to try Lyrica and see if that gives more relief. I use a walker now to transport laundry and other items I pick up during the day, to their designated place. Sure helps with my back. I do use a cane to shop with now just for support for my back.
There are days, like you just had, that fatigue comes over you like a cloud! But, we keep on keeping on. Just keep moving.
On 05/20/2017, Pat said ...
Totally agree with you on the housework. So much waiting for me to do, but I'm telling myself I'm on extended vacation & do what I feel like, which is sew. After all, I have to exercise my brain too, tight? Some of the projects I've been working on require "reverse thinking." I have to really concentrate on what I'm doing. Hope you recover soon and feel better.
On 05/20/2017, Barbara Anne said ...
Amen, sister! Uaw your good days and spoon supply for good things and fun. The homecaring tasks can wait!
Sadly, fatigue is not in our heads. Bother!
Hugs!
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