Monday, August 16, 2010

It Was NOT a Very Good Year

I remember 1977. It was the year my daddy died during one of the coldest Januarys ever. And then that summer, 33 years ago today in fact, Elvis died. I will always remember that year as a year of loss.

15-elvis-presley-081407 Elvis helped provide the soundtrack to my growing up years. I remember listening to "Don't Be Cruel" and the flipside "You Ain't Nothing But a Hound Dog" at my friend Bonnie Lois's house. We played that 45 rpm till we almost wore the grooves off I think.

I also remember exactly where I was on August 16, 1977, when I heard the news of Elvis's death. I was on the way home after having picked my children up at the city pool. I remember the DJ's words: "The King is dead; long live the king." Cliche, I know. But even before he went on to explain that Elvis Presley had died at Graceland, I knew who he meant--and I almost ran out of the road. I think I was crying by the time I got home.

Do you remember where you were when you heard of Elvis's death? Do you have a favorite Elvis song? I have many. But I guess the one I dearly love to listen to over and over isn't one from my childhood at all but the hymn "How Great Thou Art." Elvis's voice really shines in that one.


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On 08/16/2010, Sandy said ...

I can still see where I was standing in my kitchen. A cold chill went all over my body. My favorite song is "Are You Lonesome Tonight". Not the regular version but the one where Elvis gets tickled and can hardly finish the song. It absolutely cracks me up every time. Next time you get depressed, look it up on Youtube. It will give you the giggles every time. i promise!


On 08/16/2010, Ramey said ...

My two favorite Elvis songs, "In the Ghetto" and "Marie's the Name."


On 08/16/2010, Ramey said ...

Oh, Sandy! I like that version of "Are You Lonesome Tonight" too. I think he says, "...and you're standing there, without any hair." It's been a long time since I've heard it; I'll have to listen to it on YouTube.


On 08/16/2010, Kerrie said ...

I loved Elvis' music and voice and really do favor his Hymns. I love Are you Lonesome Tonight and I Can't Help Falling in Love with You. The whole decade of the 70's was sad. My Dad died 1973 at age 65. A few years later my Father-in-law died. And then Elvis whom I grew up with like you. There were a lot of changes in my life. But it is all a lesson....God is good and we still enjoy the music. hugs, K


On 08/16/2010, Barbara Anne said ...

My favorite song is "I Can't Help Falling in Love With You."

I was working the 3-11p shift at Methodist Hospital ER when the ward clerk at Baptist Hospital ER called us to say that Elvis was dead in their ER. Yes, he was gone before he got there. The sense of loss was palpable. Several of the medical staff in our ER had tickets to see him in Memphis within the month.

Christmastime, 1970, when I in nursing school in Memphis, we'd had a Christmas party and some of us piled in a car to go to Graceland in our party clothes. The gatekeeper told us Elvis had rented a theater for a late movie and would be leaving in 10 min. We stayed and I was just on the outside of the driver's door when the car came out. Elvis was driving and I'm here to tell you his smile was dazzling. How about that?!

Hugs!


On 08/16/2010, Susan Bailey said ...

I was on my honeymoon when he died and we heard the news on the radio. We were in San Diego and it was a rainy summer day when we heard the news. Kind of made us feel a little numb and sad all at the same time.
I love to read your blog and keep up with you!


On 08/16/2010, Michelle said ...

I was in Gettysburg, PA with my sister and her family. We had spent the entire day touring the battlefield. We were on our way home when we heard the news on the radio. I can't pick just one song but I love In the Ghetto, American Trilogy, My Way, and You Were Always on my Mind.

Also, a friend of mine went to jr high school with Elvis. He remained friends with him and use to go riding motorcycles with him years later in Memphis. He would also go over to a friend's house and the Imperials, Elvis, and others would all be there and they would just all sing together late into the night. Can you imagine how much fun that would have been? It is neat to watch Elvis specials with him because he knows all the people on them and tells neat stories about his memories.


On 08/16/2010, Brenda Kula said ...

For some reason I was always drawn to In The Ghetto. I loved the music that went to the lyrics so much. In 1977 I was married in October to my first husband. There would be two more, one in each continuous decade.
Brenda


On 08/16/2010, Kai said ...

There must be something wrong with me! LOL! I liked Jailhouse Rock & Return to Sender! But I confess that when everyone was gaga over Elvis, I was goofy over Dion. Soon after - when I was 13 or 14 - I discovered Broadway music, then the music I still love best: World music. Sigh ... I'm a strange bird.


On 08/16/2010, Pat said ...

I was at work when we heard the news - we could hardly believe it. We had ordered tickets to his concert, but I think it was already sold out! Sometime after his funeral (we live near Memphis) we were in the city, drove to the cemetery, and my little daughter and I walked to his crypt; his body was later interred, of course, at Graceland. I think all the first songs are my favorites: Teddy Bear, All Shook Up, though his gospel songs are wonderful, too. I've always like the Jailhouse Rock choreography, too.


On 08/17/2010, Stephanie said ...

I'm not old enough to remember where I was on that day, and I've never been a huge Elvis fan (not that I dislike him). But, my 5-year-old daughter LOVES watching old Elvis movies! She is enthralled with the music and dancing. That just cracks me up!


On 08/19/2010, Dee Brownfield said ...

I was in the car heading for somewhere when the flash came over re:Elvis. It was almost like, "that can't be true"! I like most of his songs; however, I too, lean towards "How Great Thou Art". Love his gospel album! and, of course, "Can't Help Falling In Love". Those were the days, my friend!
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Saturday, August 14, 2010

Rainy Pink Saturday

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For the first time since late spring, we residents of The Yellow House woke up to soft rain and rumbling thunder this morning. We've had rain since early last night. I love it--but the dogs don't. Skipper appears to share Sophie's aversion to water; neither one of them will go out for a nature call. They just sit on the porch and look disgusted.

Nothing turned out as I had planned yesterday, my plan being to work in the sewing room for several hours. But first, I went out to water the thirsty plants, birds, and animals, got tangled up in hose pipe and dog, and twisted my leg. I didn't fall and I didn't think I had hurt anything. But by the time I got into the house, my knee was killing me.

Whilst dealing with this minor but painful injury, a friend reminded me that it was book club day, a fact I had slap forgot. Now this just wasn't any book club meeting, it was the meeting in which we were to discuss my sister Ramey's new book Sweet Music on Moonlight Ridge. How could I miss that? But how could I be ready in the time remaining while dealing with a heat headache and a minorly injured knee?

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I won't go into the gruesome details, but suffice to say that I made it. And it was a wonderful meeting. One of our best. Not only was there plenty of discussion of Ramey's book but also of haunted houses, race relations, magic, and quantum physics. We are a diverse and intelligent group.

On the way home, I stopped by our local farmer's market and bought fresh tomatoes, okra, and peaches. Back home, I walked the doggies, ate a bowl of Honey Bunches of Oats, and read for a while. Then it was time for Diane, our mobile dog groomer.

Diane was tickled to meet Skipper and gave him a gratis mani-pedi before doing Sophie's much needed grooming. Skipper seemed happy to accompany Diane into the van, but as usual, Sophie did not.

The rain started just after our last doggie walk--well, actually, just before, as I recall. The streets were wet. After such an eventful day, we turned in early. I read a few pages of Black Hills by Dan Simmons before my eyelids refused to cooperate. And after a restful night, I woke to this wonderful Pink Saturday rain and two cold dog noses nudging my ears and face.

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All of you lovers of pink must now visit Beverly at How Sweet the Sound for lots and lots more of pinkness. And may all of you have a glorious Pink Saturday.

Bijw9y


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On 08/14/2010, Ramey Channell said ...

I'm so glad you made it to Bookclub yesterday. It was indeed a good discussion. Today I hope to clean up the painting room, and I hope my bug-bites stop itching. Maybe the Thrift Store? I hope that's not where my mojo bug-bites are coming from.


On 08/14/2010, Penny @ The Comforts of Home & Lavender Hill Studio said ...

Sounds like that is a great book club you belong too!


On 08/14/2010, Ann Creek said ...

Your pink tray is just yummy. Love the little teapot resting there. Sounds like you could have used a cup of tea yesterday. Happy Pink Sat.
Ann


On 08/14/2010, Barbara Anne said ...

Hi Susan,

Hope your knee is mending quietly and not being sassy. So glad you got yourself together to get to the book club meeting. Well done! Could it have been any better since everything about the meeting was right up your alley? Sounds like a marvelous group, too!

Your pink tray is so cute. Happy Pink Saturday to you!

Please send the rain this way!

Hugs!


On 08/14/2010, Kai said ...

LOVE that tray with the kitty teapot & tiny mouse! Could NOT be any cuter! I'm sorry about your poor lil' knee, but glad you made it to the book club meeting! Ramey would have missed you fiercely! Hope you feel better today! The rain HAS to be a treat! I could use some of that myself! LOVE YOU!


On 08/14/2010, Brenda Kula said ...

I so hate the heat headaches. Especially when they ultimately turn into migraines. I'm sorry you're limping along. I get twisted up in my hoses too. Your day sounds perfect to me. And you have the most perfect companions!
Brenda


On 08/14/2010, Charo said ...

Love that beautiful tray, and teapot is so cute!
Happy Pink Saturday!

Hugs
Charo


On 08/14/2010, Deb said ...

Hi Susan, I haven't managed to catch up on your blog of late and finally have had a chance to read through. How fantastic that you now have Skipper and Sophie is excepting of him. You have been having a tough old run of late and knowing that Vann's anniversary is getting closer is probably adding to that so much. I was reading you questioning whether you should be over the grieving process and start thinking in your own person but personally I wouldn't question yourself at all. You need to deal with things the way that you are as this is the right way for you. No matter what, Vann will always be with you, the house will always belong to the two of you etc. I think suddenly one day and it maynot be for years that you will notice you have referred to something as yours (not ours) and you will have done it so naturally it will have been right. It won't mean to say that you have forgotten Vann but it will tell you that you have accepted your great loss and are managing to move forward. Don't try to force yourself to do it, it happens naturally when you are ready. But the best thing is no matter when, Vann will always be in your heart.
big hugs Deb


On 08/14/2010, Carol said ...

What a fun post! A great read. I was sorry when it ended.
Happy Pink Saturday!


On 08/14/2010, Donna said ...

Rain! I am so jealous! We had just a tiny little shower! Jennifer called me from where she lives ... not far from you and she has had rain most of the day too. We need rain so badly. That is a darling pink tray with the teapot and cat!
Hope you feel better!
Hugs,
Donna


On 08/15/2010, Alison Gibbs said ...

Hope you knee is ok now.
What a cute little teapot.
Alison


On 08/16/2010, Renee said ...

Your tray and tea things are so pretty.

I want to wake up to a rainy day. It is still too hot and too dry here.

Hope your knee is better.
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Friday, August 13, 2010

Settling In

Soph & Skip 1

Sophie has never allowed another dog on the top bunk with her. Daisy (or any other dog who visits here) knows she has to stay in the bottom bunk if she's going to share the big chair with Sophie. But not Skipper. Just like a little brother, isn't it? They pay no attention to the wishes of a big sister.  Good, patient, sweet big sister Sophie. I would never have believed she would have accepted another live-in dog the way she has accepted Skipper. She chased him through the house last night and tossed him around until he was plum give out. But he loves it.

  Soph and Skip 2

And all that stuff about Skipper not barking? He was just getting the lay of the land. Once he started barking, he won't shut up. Half the time we're inside, he's at the window growling and barking at something outside no one can see except him. But we love him, don't we Soph?

"Yeah, sure," says the Black Dog.

I'm feeling much better today. Got a good night's sleep last night and woke up with only minimal aches and pains. Maybe I'll get something done today.

It's not like I didn't accomplish anything yesterday, lying on the couch between taking the dogs out into the heat. In fact, I watched three Lifetime movies (not exactly brain food, but a harmless distraction anyway). I saw a woman marry a wonderful mystery writer who turned into a homicidal maniac, a woman who married a rich man and had to track down her husband's murderer so she wouldn't have to take the blame, and a woman whose thieving husband jumped off a bridge in San Francisco only to show up 15 years later living with another woman in Maine.

Today, I'm not even going to turn the tv on. This is a day of action. Mostly action in the sewing room. Happy Friday 13th, everyone.


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On 08/13/2010, Mary said ...

Skipper is one lucky doggie, for sure. And, Sophie has to be a special doggie, also. The pictures of the two of them are great. Glad you are feeling better!


On 08/13/2010, Ruth said ...

So happy you're feeling better Susan. Try not to over do it in the sewing room. I just love those dogs.
Ruth


On 08/13/2010, Penny @ The Comforts of Home & Lavender Hill Studio said ...

Glad you are feeling better! The doggies are soooo cute!
Penny


On 08/13/2010, Kai said ...

The doggies look so sweet up there! Good lil' Sophie! She is a wonderful big sister! And that sly Skipper, waiting to SURPRISE everyone with his bark! LOL! It's GREAT hearing you sound better! I've never watched any Lifetime movies but - hmmmm - maybe I SHOULD if they make you feel good! Naaaaaaw! I know what I NEED to watch to feel great: Kal Ho Naa Ho! It's my all-time FAVE Bollywood movie! Three hours worth of wonderful! (Yes, I DO have 'ecclectic' - or, go ahead & say it - WEIRD - taste in movies & music, huh?) Trouble IS, I never seem to have three hours to myself.


On 08/13/2010, Barbara Anne said ...

What cute doggie siblings! I had to laugh at your description of their interactions. The fact that Skipper has found his voice is a mixed blessing, isn't it?

Cheers that you're feeling so much better today! Fabric Friday includes any sewing room activity or even sitting to peruse a quilt book or magazine or to watch a quilting TV show. We quilters try not to be rigid and stuffy after all!

Happy Friday the 13th to you, too!

Hugs!


On 08/13/2010, Loribelle said ...

Okay, I think it's about time for the Daisy test ;-) Don'tcha think? Love you much SQ, LBJ


On 08/13/2010, Debra said ...

I was wondering about the voice back at the beginning. We got a dog at the shelter once that was so docile and shy until he also got the lay of the land!

Maybe having a companion for Sophie will alleviate her attention cravings from you a little.


On 08/13/2010, Carol said ...

Oh gosh that is the cutest picture...I love that everyone is happy together...and now with Skipper I'll bet Sophie will be getting lots of exercise and she won't be ready to run off from you!


On 08/13/2010, Debby Messner said ...

Hi again. My little dog claims the back of the couch. My big dogs actually tried to fit but falls off because he is too big. Sounds like a crazy day of Lifetime. I am a little sick of sitting in the dark and of these headaches....still there but hoping the meds the dcot gave me will soon help. Geez, I have things I need to do. Hope you get alot done.


On 08/14/2010, Pam Kellogg said ...

What beautiful dogs you have!! I'm an animal lover!!! Your blog is gorgeous. I'm following you now and I will add a link to my blog list in my sidebar. If you have a little free time, please visit me!


On 08/14/2010, Rebecca said ...

I love how dogs will accept another into the pack -we have 3 so I know! I know what you mean about lifetime movies -they just suck you in and you have to keep watching them. Happy PS!


On 08/15/2010, kayellen said ...

Glad to hear you are feeling better Susan~~ahhhh love that Sophie shared her space:)
Gracie only shares with our Kitty Napoleon on special occasions! lol

xo
K


On 08/15/2010, Stephanie said ...

That is just great. I love watching dogs come accustomed to each other, establish boundaries, etc. We have a border collie and a Yorkie. When the border collie was young, she used to chase the Yorkie around until the Yorkie learned she could jump up on the back of the couch and lay there on a blanket (like Soph does) and escape the torture of being chased. Soon, the border collie learned to grab the blanket and pull it off the couch, so the Yorkie gave that up. I would often find her hiding under a desk, where the border collie was too big to get under now, when I came home from work. Her neck would be all wet from the border collie trying to play with her. Now, they are 10 (border collie) and 11 (Yorkie) and the Yorkie has firmly established dominance over the border collie. It's too funny.


On 08/20/2010, Cam said ...

What a cute story. We too had an addition to our full grown terrier who turned out to be an instigater. It's really funny to watch the little one try to get her big sister in trouble.
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Thursday, August 12, 2010

Ladybug Lore and a Little Bit More

Lady BUg

    In France, if a Ladybug landed on you, whatever ailment
    you had would fly away with the Ladybug.

Do you really have to be in France for this to work? Somebody please find me a ladybug and let's try it. I spent most of last night tossing and turning, trying to get in a comfortable position for sleep. Everything hurt, but especially my legs and hips.

I was scheduled for a road trip today with some of my quilting buddies. They're checking out a fabric store in Gadsden. But I'm so tired, and still very achy, I decided I'd best stay home. I don't need more fabric anyway, but it would have been fun to spend the day with them.

I did some more straightening and organizing in the sewing room yesterday. If the pain subsides a bit, I might do some more today. The room is shaping up. I think I could have it organized in a couple more days.

S&S

Sophie and Skipper are feeling fine though. They have become big play buddies. I know the photo above looks like they're trying to eat each other, but they're really playing. They have several intense play sessions a day now, many of them instigated by Sophie. I think she has finally adopted him as her little brother. They play and play and run and tussle and roll and jump and growl. Then they flop down unconscious and nap for a while--which is what they're doing right now. And believe it or not, Skipper is usually the first one to get tired.

LittleYellowButterfly4249 BTW, there's hope for cooler weather, the weather man says. I'm not surprised. I have been seeing little yellow butterflies this week (a sure sign that autumn is on its way). I thought I saw one a couple of weeks ago, but since I wasn't sure it was the right butterfly, I didn't count him. I pray for an early and crisp autumn.



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On 08/12/2010, Barbara Anne said ...

Hi girlfriend!

I'm so sorry to hear you had a bad night's sleep. Did you take an aspirin (or two) when you were wakeful and uncomfortable? Aspirin is a miracle drug that would never be approved by the FDA because exactly how it works is still unknown. Lucky for the achy people of the planet, the discovery of aspirin pre-dates the FDA!!

Bummer about missing the road trip with your quiltie friends. That would have been fun, but it's best that you listened to your body today. I know what you mean about not needing more fabric.

Cheers that you've made progress in organizing the sewing room and that your furry kids are playing well together. Skipper must think he's gone to dog utopia and Sophie must be sure he's her play toy.

Be good to you today and do gentle things with a nap from time to time!

Hugs!


On 08/12/2010, Sandra Neel Hutchins said ...

Blessings for a better tomorrow. We never know when those days of fatigue and body aches will happen. But one thing that I know from experience is that a good day will come along again soon. Rest and relax and wait for one of those good days!


On 08/12/2010, Kai said ...

Barbara, how do you ALWAYS know just what I'm about to write? LOL! Seriously, I DO ditto her comment! And let me add that the cicadas here are producing an absolute symphony! My grandfather told me YEARS AGO that when you hear them loud & clear, Autumn will soon follow. WOOOOOOHOOOOOO! I'm READY! Rest as much as possible today, sweet girl! I love you!


On 08/12/2010, Debby Messner said ...

My doggies do that kind of playing as well....one is a Yorkie and on is a Springer Spaniel. They usually do this at my feet which is very annoying.
Sure hope fall is getting closer.
Yep, trying that nap today. 5 days of a headache geez Louise.


On 08/12/2010, Jo said ...

Susan,
So sorry to hear you had a bad night for I know where you are coming from. Not because I had aches and pains but I just couldn't sleep. The last time I looked at the clock it was 2 a.m. and I still hadn't been asleep.
Your little furbabies sure do look well adjusted to each other. I'm sure Sophie has let Skipper know who the boss is.
Hope you have a blessed day and a can have a restful night.
Jo


On 08/12/2010, Brenda Kula said ...

It sort of does look like they're trying to consume one another! I laughed out loud. Love dog antics. I'm sorry you're sore and achy. When it's about to rain or cool down, I get that way too.
Brenda


On 08/12/2010, Donna said ...

Susan, You sound like me! I have so many pains from years of lifting Amber and my body aches all over at times. But if I could just pick her up again oh how great life would be. I don't sleep well either. I woke up yesterday morning thinking I heard her call for me. I wish so much I could hear her voice again. I read your post yesterday about the one year anniversary about Vann's passing. The one year mark for Amber was July 24 and I don't think I can ever move on. It's like what do I do now? I try to stay busy but my routine was so involved around her for 29 years. Anyway ... where in Gadsden is there a fabric store? Would you please let me know ... didn't know we had one! HL is the only place I know to buy any fabric ... not that I need any!
I hope you are feeling better. I think of you daily.
Hugs,
Donna


On 08/12/2010, Carol said ...

Susan - The dogs look like they are having a great time. Great action shot.
I'm thinking of you and will keep you in my prayers.
Enjoying your blog!


On 08/14/2010, Susan B said ...

I would like to know what that store is because I live near Gadsden and would like to visit it.
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Wednesday, August 11, 2010

Stuck

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Thank you all for your encouragement and support. I'm still sort of running in the "bird balls" mode today. Don't want to do anything except sit here and stare into space and remember. I'm bored with all this makeover stuff and just want to settle into a routine. Something like sewing in the morning, reading in the afternoon. Or vice versa.

I got to thinking last night about the holidays. It's almost September--and you know how fast the holidays arrive after it gets to be September. So I panicked. I want to hold a big family Thanksgiving or Christmas (or both) dinner here this year. And the way I feel these days, I think I probably need to start getting ready now. It seems to take me an inordinate amount of time to complete the smallest task.

But first I have to get through "the anniversary." How can it already have been a year? It seems he was just here. I wonder if Sophie has forgotten him. I doubt it. I still won't say the word "PopPop" in her hearing.

There's something about this approaching one-year anniversary that scares me. It's not the reminder of his death so much. It's more like: all right now, you've had a year to grieve. You have to put it all behind you now and get on with your life. What does that mean, get on with your life? Does it mean he's not a part of my life anymore? See, that's what I don't want to face. That's why I refer to "our house," "our yard," "our friends." I don't want to admit that there is no more "our." That it's just me now--well, me and the dogs. A year is enough time to fantasize about waking up and telling him that I had an awful dream about him dying. Enough time to imagine the sound of his truck pulling into the driveway. But I'm afraid to let go of that. It feels like I'm letting go of him.

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Well, but on a perkier note, I'm linking to Sue's Rednesday Party to cheer us all up after my downer post. Nothing cheers like the color red--unless it's a brownie sundae or a quilting retreat with friends or some good praise music. But there's none of that around here right now, so let's settle for Sue's red offerings. Go on over and see what you see.

1+Ferris+aA


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On 08/11/2010, Lavender Dreams said ...

I am keeping your in my prayers...I know how hard it can be. And there's no easy answer to what you're facing. In a way a year sounds like a long time...but really it goes by in a flash. You'll find your groove! Hugs! Diane ♥♥♥


On 08/11/2010, Barbara Anne said ...

Dear heart,

Grief has no time limits or an imposed end time. As you've found out, it comes and goes and that's probably how it will continue, becoming ever more gentle. You don't have to let go of anything.

My mother told me that. She stayed in "their" house for 12 years after Dad died and when she bought a different house back in the neighborhood where she grew up and where her sister lived, she was sad to leave "their" house. I told her Dad would know to come to the new house.

Your pieced heart is wonderful! Feel the love and be at peace. You'll be okay.

Hugs!


On 08/11/2010, Ruth said ...

Susan, I think that things can still be "ours" as Vann was such a large part of your life . I'm sure that Sophie still misses Vann and has probably told Skipper about her Poppop.
These sad days will pass, just go with them and positive things will result.
Sending hugs and prayers your way.
Ruth


On 08/11/2010, Donna Erickson said ...

My husband died 22 yrs ago (@ the age of 39 from a heart attack) when our boys were 5 and 11.
His death and absence have defined us almost as much as his presence in our lives did. There's not a day goes by in which one of us doesn't think of him; I suspect ME, most of all. The people we love live on..whether they do, in this reality, or not.
I promise, there DOES come a day when you start saying "my" and 'Mine" more than 'ours'...it will happen, but that doesn't mean you won't be using a different pronoun in your heart.
Be gentle with yourself - and take all the time you need.


On 08/11/2010, Dandelion Quilts said ...

Susan, I am thinking of you during this difficult time.


On 08/11/2010, cotty said ...

I'm out of words. This post is beautiful. Thanks for sharing you heart with all of Us. You brought tears to my eyes. My husband is a combat veteran, his health has declined as the years past, he is still very young, and sometimes while he sleeps I wonder what would I do if something happen to Him.
You are now in my prayers.

Cotty


On 08/11/2010, Alison in UK said ...

There is no time limit on grief, I'm sure this one year anniversary is weighing heavily on you and stopping you in your tracks. The anticipation is often worse than the event itself, but be gentle on yourself until it has passed. Barbara Anne has said it very well. I don't think a year is very long at all after someone very close and special has died, I would expect things to get easier after the first year as most of your "firsts" without them have passed, but "easier" isn't "finished". Take care of yourself.


On 08/11/2010, Kai said ...

You are traveling a road we ALL have to travel at some point. But I believe - & I mean I TRULY believe - the journey never ends. It gets EASIER, and there are more 'remembering SMILES' than 'remembering tears' after a while. But I think that happens about the time we realize our loved one is walking right beside us on the journey. They are NEVER left behind and WE are never left alone. My lil' sister who crossed over in the mid 90s and my beloved grandfather who crossed in 1960, are ALWAYS around me. Vann will be with you always. I love you, Susan!


On 08/11/2010, Joanne said ...

Susie, this post made me cry, and laugh also. So many memories!


On 08/11/2010, Kerrie said ...

I thank God for every day I have with my husband and fear every day that I will lose him soon. It is an awful and lonely place to be--unless you have been there, like you. I love that you loved your hubby so, as we are the same. We are half of each other--together the whole. Luv you much, it is a long road but you will make it. Blessings, Kerrie


On 08/11/2010, Teresa said ...

(((Susan))) you expressed so well what I was feeling yesterday. My mom died in December and I have been cleaning out some of her things the last few weeks. With each thing I give away or part with, just seemed another piece gone. Yesterday it hit me so hard... the sense of loss..I just wanted to sit down and have a cup of coffee with her one more time. Its hard to let go of the material items, but Thank God we never have to let go of the memories and emotional bond that will last forever.


On 08/11/2010, Sylvia Weitzel said ...

Oh Susan, my dear and beautiful friend. Your post has me in tears. I am remembering what we have just gone through and how I thought I was going to lose him. You helped me through my time of need and I only wish I could take away your grief. I am so sure he is with you and always will be. The ladies above have said it better than I ever could. Love you Susan and I am sending soft hugs and prayers to you!
~Sylvia


On 08/11/2010, Jan Maniatis said ...

I've only recently begun to read your wonderful blog. It's filled with hominess and warmth and I'm sure we could be fast friends. I am so sorry about your loss. It's so hard to adjust and have things feel like they are in the right place after losing your dear. My prayers are with you today and from what I've seen on your blog, you have pluck and spirit and God will show you the way. Be encouraged, jan


On 08/11/2010, Lily said ...

I am so sorry for your loss. What you are describing is so familiar to me, I've been there and done that. It has been 5 years since my mother died at too young of an age (61) and it takes a while. Books got me through. You don't need to be creative, you can just get lost in a story. worked for me. I'm sure you will find something that will help you too. Meanwhile, prayers for you.
~Lily


On 08/11/2010, LaVoice said ...

My first visit to your blog. I enjoyed it very much. Sorry you are going through down times, but it will get better. Sometimes we have to wait a little longer, but there is a pot of gold at the end of the rainbow. Take care.


On 08/11/2010, Sally said ...

I'm so very sorry for your loss. Anniversaries are very tough and the very first one, the most. Sending you lots and lots of hugs. Don't pay any attention to anyone else's timetable, or even your own ideas of where you should be - grieving and healing have their own schedules. Be gentle with yourself.

Sally


On 08/11/2010, Jan said ...

Big hugs to you sweetie as you brace yourself for the 1 year Anniversary of your Honey's entrance into Heaven. It's not an easy day ... I can attest to that fact; but it is the ending of all the "firsts," and I pray that knowing that will give you some sense of peace. Big hugs coming your way :)

Oh and I adore the Rooster Recipe Box below!!! That is the cutest thing ever.


On 08/11/2010, Carol said ...

Susan,
I am going to keep you in my prayers. The one year anniversary is a big thing. I knew it was coming up quickly.
Keep us updated.


On 08/11/2010, k&c's mom said ...

You've been so helpful to me this year with your encouragement. I'm praying for you as the anniversary nears. Everyone goes through it a different way. I think you've been so brave this year Please keep us informed as the day draws nearer, sweet bloggy friend.


On 08/22/2010, Courtney Short-Prudhomme said ...

i can't imagine what it must be like and how you must miss him.. and you never fail to remind me that I should be thankful for that knuckle head that I get so frustrated with sometimes.. there may come a time when I wish he was here to do those little annoying things, and love and hug and kiss me. Just know that all of us, as your friends love you dearly and hope that that helps at least a little :-) *hugs*

Do you ever wonder if Vann sent Skipper to you? Knowing you need some extra support at this time of year?? Funny how things work out that way.. same thing happened with my grandma when my grandpa passed away. I think he's making himself at home.. it's like he knew he was supposed to be there :-)
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Tuesday, August 10, 2010

Bird Balls

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I'm trying to come up with a word or phrase to say how I feel today. I see this basket of beautiful orbs containing bird likenesses that I found at a yard sale this summer. Bird balls, I think. I don't know what it means, but it sounds like how I feel.

I seem to have hit a snag creatively. I feel like my brain is on a merry-go-round. I can't focus. And I can't get my sewing room organized to save my life--too much stuff. I feel like I have too many dogs. There's a rash on my legs that won't go away. The kitchen won't stay cleaned up. My bed needs making. Every time I make the bed, for some reason I think, If I were the only person left in the world, would I still make my bed? I lost two pounds, then gained one back. I feel like I forgot something important. I think I need a haircut. I need to call the carpet cleaner but i don't want to deal with that.

You see, it just goes on and on. I can't stick with one thought long enough to get anything done. Bird Balls!

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Speaking of which, I just love birds. There are so many birds around The Yellow House, sometimes I feel like I live in an aviary. I fill the bird feeder, turn around twice, and it's empty. The hummingbirds fight incessantly over their feeder spouts. We have mockingbirds, robins, sparrows, titmouses, woodpeckers, cardinals, blue jays, doves, Canada geese, crows, nuthatches, wrens, thrashers, blue birds, thrushes, finches, hummingbirds, and probably others that I don't recognize.

A mockingbird built a nest in the eave of our porch and fledged two young'ns. Some other bird (probably another mocker) built a nest in one of the holly bushes, and Sophie murdered the two babes (and ate one) before they were old enough to fledge. You probably didn't want to know that.

Why do I continue to refer to things around here as "our?" Our porch, our house, our yard? Sometimes I feel that Vann has never left; I'm just waiting for him to return from Lowe's or Wyoming or somewhere. In a couple of weeks, we'll mark the one-year anniversary of his death. Wonder what he would think of Skipper? And the preponderance of pinkish walls around here?

I''m rambling. I know I am. But that's the best I can do for a blog post today. Maybe I'll accomplish something today and be able to tell you all about it tomorrow. And maybe not. Bird Balls!



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On 08/10/2010, Wendy said ...

Nice to read your ramblings. Some days are just perfect for doing so.


On 08/10/2010, Ruth said ...

Sounds like you need to sit in a comfy seat, put your feet up and just watch the birds or lose yourself in a good book.
As regards your sewing room, have you triedt he one drawer or cupboard a day approach?
Be nice to yourself Suasn, you'll also be feeling anxious as the anniversary of Vann's death approaches.
Hugs Ruth


On 08/10/2010, Mary said ...

Bird Balls it is! Oh, how I relate to what you say you are feeling. I think I could have written some of your post for you. And, about the sewing/project room - sometimes I wonder if I will ever have it anywhere near what it was in the past or what I would accept in the present. I am having my first cup of coffee this morning and I have a headache and I am dizzy (probably from my recent head injury) and I am tired of being tired. I am sure your days will get better and so will mine. And, yes, take good care of yourself around Vann's one year date and surround yourself with lots of love. I'll be sending mine through some positive energy. Take Care.


On 08/10/2010, Stephanie said ...

I love Bird Balls! Hang in there. We all have days like this. You probably need a break...get away from it a little...go to a good movie that's really FUNNY....do something that will really take your mind off everything. For me, that always used to be a horseback ride in the back country. But, alas, we sold our horses. I'm still trying to find the thing I can substitute for that. Usually sewing does the trick for me.... I can't imagine how it feels to lose your loved one like that. I am sure it's difficult. Take care of yourself.


On 08/10/2010, Jackie Hicks said ...

It just seems like one of "those" days that will just sneak up on you - find a sympathetic friend and have a girls day out to take you mind off all the clutter at home - it can all wait until a better day.
Hang in there!


On 08/10/2010, Cam said ...

I guess I could have written your post too. I can't seem to get things together. I haven't been in my sewing room for months. I do need to do some mending but I've got Scarlet O'Hara syndrom about that and just about everything else. I keep thinking the weather has gotten me down and I'll feel more like myself come fall. I'm hanging on to that thought.

Maybe you should get your rash looked at. You could have scratched or rubbed against a mean weed.
Cam


On 08/10/2010, Cam said ...

I keep finishing things before I'm finished:

I wanted to also say that I think Vann is looking down at you with love and approval. You are fixing the house like you want it.


On 08/10/2010, Helen said ...

A bit selfish of me to feel better :-) after reading your post....rather like saying "Misery likes company" but it really helped my mood to read this since I feel that you are such a strong person who gets it done. I have been in a grand funk for the past month since our daughter was married and don't even know why (since she married a wonderful young man). Everything seems to be too much effort and every day just a repeat of the same....depression? looking for ways to feel better that are healthier than what I am doing. Think that I will adopt the attitude that this whole episode I am going through it just birdballs! Thanks for writing this Susan!


On 08/10/2010, Brenda Kula said ...

I loved your "rambling." I found it quite entertaining. When I can't get a room organized, it seems like my mind taunts me about it. Everything then feels chaotic, because in the back of my mind all the time is the realization of that disorganized room. But then again, menopause plays crazy tricks on me too.
Brenda


On 08/10/2010, Kai said ...

I hereby declare, "Bird Balls!" as the official oath of all females! It is definitively 'frustrated' sounding while still maintaining a modicum of femininity! LOL! On top of all THAT, it's funny, cute, and gets the job DONE! I agree with the masses, by the way. I ALSO get these 'stuff is just too MUCH' and I want to do everything but at the same time don't want to do ANYTHING. And I SO agree that you may be going through some sort of anxiety as the anniversary of Vann's passing gets nearer. But, sweet lil' Susan, Vann IS there with you. You said you wonder what he'd think of the pink walls & of Skipper. I believe he would have rolled his eyes at the walls were he there in body, but LOVES them for YOU & is HAPPY you painted them. And Skipper? Who is to say that Skipper's sudden appearance in your life wasn't Vann's GIFT to you? I love you, and I think you are a TREASURE. Take CARE of you and do what you FEEL like doing till you feel like doing MORE.


On 08/10/2010, Joanne said ...

All this confusion will pass away. Suddenly you'll have a non-Bird Balls day, and everything will look do-able again. Love - Una


On 08/10/2010, Sandy said ...

Sounds like you've got what I've got - ADD - Attention Deficit Disorder!! Can't focus. Lack of organization. The list goes on and on. I went in my sewing room recently to make an apron. Started 4 other projects, finished none of them and didn't even start on an apron!! Yikes!! There are lots of us out here in the same shape you're in so at least you're in good company. Praying tomorrow is a better day for you.


On 08/10/2010, Charlene said ...

One of the books I read on surviving widowhood advised that there are just some days when you need to go to bed with a sad book, potato chips, chocolate and your favorite drink with the tv on a sad movie and just wallow in your sorrow. Tomorrow is another day and you will feel different. Maybe not better but different. Acknowledge your feelings and keep surviving. We can't be Susie Sunshine all the time - But we can survive the deepest hurts.


On 08/10/2010, Debby Messner said ...

As I was reading your post I was thinking, I wonderif the anniversary of your husband passing is soon. I think that's what is going on. Too many memories of that time. Wish I had advice for you. Anniversaries are really hard. Van is still in your heart and looking over you. ((((HUGS)))


On 08/10/2010, Barbara Anne said ...

Hi sweetie,

Love the bird balls and the meaning of rolling one thing to another like a bird-brain, perhaps?! I hear you! I call it dithering when I'm all at sea and I think of Aunt Clara on Bewitched. In her honor, I have a crystal door knob in my living room!

Methinks it's your subconscious awareness of the approaching anniversary of Vann's death, the undercurrent of the sadness and worry you were dealing with a year ago, and the realization of what has changed in your life, the welcome and the unwelcome.

I imagine Vann gets a huge kick out of the changes in your home as if he's looking in and thinking "Ha! Look at that!!" and "That looks comfortable." and "Pink?? Whodathunk it?!"

Be gentle with yourself as the calendar marches towards September and honor yourself, the love you and Vann shared, and that you still share.

Hugs!


On 08/10/2010, Janean said ...

we're blaming our *blahs* and constant state of tiredness and not-caring on August. why not? LOL.

ya can't force creativity. it doesn't come to a tired or bored mind, but it'll drop in one day (or night) unexpected, but welcomed!


On 08/10/2010, Mary said ...

I just wanted to say that I'm so sorry you're going thru a rough patch. The other ladies nailed it, i think, when they said you are probably gearing up for the pain that will hit around the anniversary mark of your precious husband's passing. I'm praying for you.
I love birds, too. And we feed flocks of 'em in our back yard. We feel the same thing: What? I just filled that! We have two large seed feeders, 2 large h-bird feeders, and an Oriole feeder. One little h-bird thinks they all belong to him and he's also the fattest h-bird you've ever seen! He literally sits on the feeder all day and naps 'til another bird comes up to eat. Then he chases them off. We get so mad at him, we've threatened to geet a squirt gun to chase him off. Birdballz!
Lord bless you, Susan~


On 08/10/2010, AnnieO said ...

Focus is hard sometimes, especially when time seems to both stand still and yet not let you catch your breath because it passes so quickly! Personally I think you have been focusing A LOT in the last two months and maybe need a little breather :) Vann IS there, in your love and remembrance, so to me "our" doesn't seem a pronoun out of place in your thoughts and descriptions! Take care.


On 08/10/2010, cielo said ...

I think that someone very special sent me here tonight... oh lift up your eyes, go get your hair cut, plant some flowers, think and act positively, and while doing that, don't forget to count your blessings...

Look up dear Susan... Bird balls? See them transformed in magical bubbles…

Love

Cielo


On 08/11/2010, mrs. m said ...

Your have a nice blog here with pretty collections and worth-reading ramblings... I enjoyed my visit and decided to be a follower.

Blessings!

P.S. I'm having a giveaway due on 15th. You might want to check it out :-)


On 08/11/2010, Pat said ...

My close friends and I have a "thing" about birds and well, anyway - it's okay to have one of those days. Try to just have a "day off." Look at all the neat things you HAVE done! And yes, you are approaching the anniversary of Vann's death and your heart and soul know it. Remember the One who comforts above all. You're in my prayers.


On 08/11/2010, Jayme, The Coop Keeper said ...

Lord have mercy, we are on the same page! I'm up one day, busy, feeling good and focused, and the next day - I'm staring at the walls again not wanting to do a ding dang thing! I had a hot flash last night. I'm scared.


On 08/15/2010, Debra said ...

I was just thinking the other day that isn't it a coincidence that Skipper appeared so close to the date of Vann's death? Surely he was sent to you, surely.
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Monday, August 9, 2010

Roosters Continued

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I never like to waste photos. So I'm going to use today's post to show some more roosters. These are the ones I photographed for the Barb's Rooster Party before I decided to show my fabric book instead. The one above is a wooden recipe box made by craft artist Carole Tipton for a mixed-craft book I was doing at Oxmoor House. I bought it at one of the prop/project auctions we used to have at OH.

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Andy gave me this. There are tiny eggs inside the box.


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Thrift-store painted iron bookends to hold some of my favorite cookbooks.

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Gertrude's rooster rug. (Gertrude is my stove.)

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I found the paper-towel holder at Marshall's and the hand soap at Home Goods.

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A pretty rooster mug.

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I found this great canister at a yard sale a couple of weeks ago. I haven't decided what I'm going to put in it. Do you have a suggestion?

Today, I'm linking to Cielo's Show Off Your Cottage Party ,  Barb's Rooster Party, and Rhoda's Thrifty Monday.

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On 08/09/2010, Donna said ...

Love seeing more of your roosters! The recipe box is adorable!


On 08/09/2010, cielo said ...

Very pretty... I sense such a nice homey feeling in here... thanks for participating in our "Show Off Your Cottage Monday" and bringing us here!

Blessings

Cielo


On 08/09/2010, Stephanie said ...

Cute stuff! Love roosters.


On 08/09/2010, Kai said ...

Hi, Susan! I never SAW so many darling roosters in one place! That 'pokey-dottered' - as my daughter used to say when she was 2 - one is WONDERFUL! The one Andy gave you is priceless! And you KNOW I'm nuts about the red paper towel holder! I mean red AND roosters? PERFECTION! But that new one - the canister - is something I've never SEEN! No idea what to put IN it, but even if you put NOTHING, it will be GORGEOUS!


On 08/09/2010, Barbara Anne said ...

What a varied and cheerful group of rooster treasures you have! The little porcelain box Andy found is just charming! Thanks for showing these to us.

It's been a busy morning,so I'm now off to see more of what everyone has been up to in their homes.

Hugs!


On 08/09/2010, Elly said ...

Wonderful collection! I especially love the mug and the canister! Would be lovely in my kitchen too!


On 08/09/2010, www.google.com/accounts/o8/id?id=AItOawnCbrWifPSE0j8OA6ZyqwjUNBCS0WW_L5M said ...

Love the Rooster jar, fill it full of something fall and harvest looking, it is great no mater what you do! Great find! Happy Rooster Friday, I'm slow to getting around all the blogs, thanks for sharing! XOXO


On 08/09/2010, Sarah said ...

Glad you decided to post these! It's always fun to see more roosters. I've been out of town and away from my computer, so I'm late in arriving at all the parties. I'm off to see your first one..... Sarah


On 08/09/2010, Sherry said ...

What a great collection of roosters. I really love the cannister. The lid looks like pewter. ~~Sherry~~


On 08/10/2010, AnnieO said ...

What a fun collection! I'd love to see large wooden beads in that canister, maybe even some of the oval ones to look like eggs!


On 08/11/2010, Gail@FaithfulnessFarm said ...

You have some great roosters!! I love the iron bookends. Sorry for being late to the party but I've been on vacation :)

Blessings!
Gail
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