Blackberry Creek

Monday, September 7, 2009

Life Goes On

Not much more about grief and widows and such, I promise. But I do want to show some of the beautiful flowers and plants we've received. Even though we requested donations to the church and the Cancer Society in lieu of flowers, some people felt that the life and beauty of these pretty plants were needed too. And they were right.

The blooms at right are part of a huge basket of white flowers that the folks at Progressive Farmer sent. That's where Vann and I met. He was working as a photographer and I as a writer. Vann spent almost 25 years there, going on to become the magazine's photo editor as well as award-winning photographer. I moved on to Oxmoor House, another branch of Southern Progress Corp., of which PF also belonged until a couple of years ago.

Sophie got a bath this morning. I've decided this is going to be Sophie Day. I'm going to give her some extra special attention, maybe take her for a long walk at the Walking Track Park. She has been such a good dog this past week; she deserves a treat. And I think it will be fun for me too. Come on, girl. It's a new day. Let's make it count for PopPop.

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On 09/07/2009, Sandy said ...

You go girl!!!

On 09/07/2009, CarlaH said ...

Susan, I think I speak for all of your readers when I say feel free to talk to us about whatever is on your mind - we do not expect you to hide your grief. You are doing your best to deal with what life has thrown at you and we admire you.
Enjoy your walk with Sophie and thank you for sharing the flowers, they are truly lovely.

On 09/07/2009, Molly said ...

Absolutely do NOT censor yourself! I understand about not "wanting" to talk about certain things all the time but please don't hold back. We are here for you, to be your sounding board when you need one.

Have a good time with Sophie! Don't overdo it though, its hot today(at least it is here in east Texas).

On 09/07/2009, Ruth Landon said ...

What beautiful flowers. I agree that you should feel free to talk about whatever you need to, in doing so you are helping others to see how life gos on even if it is a struggle at times.
Enjoy your outing with Sophie you are lucky to have each other. Pets realise what is going on more than we think , and I'm sure that Sophie must be missing Vann too.
Ruth

On 09/07/2009, alexandrine said ...

Beautifuls flowers.
I can't tell you all I want..I don't all the english vocabulary... :-(((and I not sure you can understand if I tell you in french... But take care of you and Sophie. Do what you want , enjoy life and all the moments you have;

Love

Alexandrine

On 09/07/2009, Lynn said ...

I took a class once from an internationally known quilter. She was a widow, also. The whole first year after his death, she immersed herself in making a grief quilt. All the feelings she had, her grief, her anger, her complete loss, all went into that quilt. I expected it to be all dark colors when she finally showed it to us, but it was strikingly beautiful in all colors of the rainbow. Her love for him was there, too. I have never lost someone I loved that much to death so I cannot begin to understand what you are going through. I can tell you that you will need to feel it all to get to the other side of this. My heart, my thoughts and my prayers are certainly with you.

On 09/07/2009, Joan said ...

I am sure that Sophie had a great Sophie Day.
Have been thinking of you over the last few days and you are in my prayers.

On 09/07/2009, AwtemNymf said ...

Beautiful flowers! Good for you- to go out and enjoy Nature the beauties of Gods creations - sun, flowers, a walk with Sophie! Awwwww~ you're so sweet! Praying and thinking of ya'll!
{{ H U G S }}

On 09/07/2009, Gayle said ...

I agree...please do not censor yourself...you may even help someone else in the process.

On 09/07/2009, Carol R said ...

I may not be able to be there to give you a hug in person if you need one, but I sure can give you a cyber one. Please don't feel you are being morbid or bringing your readers down with your grief. We are all one big family in cyberspace and are here for each other in good times and bad.

On 09/07/2009, Alison Gibbs said ...

You know that you can go on about as much grief and widows things as you like. What ever helps you get through the day. Know that we are all here for you in whatever way we can help. Friendships in 'Blogland' are special and caring
Alison

On 09/07/2009, Beverly said ...

Susan, you and Sophie do whatever feels right at any given moment.

Love to you.

On 09/07/2009, Nicole said ...

Are any of the kids still staying with you? Hope you aren't all on your own. After Mom died, I would go through periods of wanting to grieve on my own, or wanting not to think one more second of my loss. I welcomed the opportunity to be totally distracted. I think it is good to have family and friends near so you have your options. Wish I could sit and have some iced tea with you. Just pretend next time you pour a glass.

On 09/07/2009, Debra Spincic said ...

We want to be here for you so show up in whatever mood you are in and tell us what is happening. We couldn't have come to know you and Vann had you not shared your life with us and I hope you don't stop. Some days are going to be great and some days are going to be train wrecks but I hope you know we are here night and day for you.

Sending love,
Debra

On 09/07/2009, Elaine said ...

I am a few days late reading the blogs I follow and I just saw where your dear sweet Vann died....I am so very sorry to hear of you great loss. My deepest sympathy to you, as well as your and his family.

You post about what you need to say...I am sure everyone who are followers of you blog will certainly understand. We are all here for you...
Again my deepest sympathy...

On 09/07/2009, Julia Wood said ...

You are an amazing woman and an inspiration to us all. Sophie, too!

On 09/07/2009, Kelly said ...

Oh Susan... I just found your blog. I am so incredibly sorry for your loss. I can't imagine your grief right now.
I just lost my Mom this summer, after a horrific year of Lewey body Dementia.
So far I've learned there is no right way to grieve. And now, just when I think I'm pretty over the grief, I have a hard day like today.
Take all the time in the world to heal, and be gentle with yourself.
I'll keep you and your family in my prayers.

Love,
Kelly

On 09/07/2009, Deb said ...

Susan, I agree with the other ladies,you can talk about your grief as much as you would like on your blog. It is a healing process so go for it.
Those flowers were absolutely stunning, such a beautiful white basket , fresh and crisp like the dawn of a new day.
I so hope you enjoyed your walk with Sophie today. I am sure it was benefical for her and you both, the lovely fresh air and time to breathe and remember.
big hugs

On 09/07/2009, Debbie said ...

I am so sorry to read of your loss. Even though I don't personally know you, I feel as though I do through your words on this blog. You and Vann had a beautiful life together and you were certainly loved. I have been praying for ya'll for quite some time and will continue to lift your name in prayer as you go thru this. God is with you in this difficult time.

On 09/07/2009, Teresa/MarieSews said ...

Take care of yourself. Humor is always good even if it seems disrespectful. Your writing is wonderful. My thoughts and prayers are with you.

On 09/07/2009, Barbara Anne said ...

Hi Susan,

Yes, life does go on even when you cannot imagine how. Grief isn't constant, but will come in ever lessening waves and that is how it should be.

Enjoy Sophie, enjoy the beautiful flowers, and be gentle with yourself. You can talk about anything you want to here. We're here for you.

Hugs!

On 09/08/2009, Linda J.W. said ...

Susan,What are friends for but to lesson and to be there for them for the good times and the bad times.You can open up and we are here for you.My prayers are for You and Sophie.
Linda W.

On 09/08/2009, Sheryl said ...

Sophie Day... what a lovely idea, I wish my Mum had a Sophie when my dad passed away I know it would have been a beautiful comfort for her....
My heartfelt sympathy to you and your family even from the other side of the world I am thinking of you... Sheryl.

On 09/08/2009, Diva Kreszl said ...

Susan, I have been away and just returned to hear the sad news that Vann has lost his battle with cancer. I know in my heart that he has won a battle for new life with our Lord. I hope that you will be able to use your blog to pour out your heart when you need to as we are all here for you. Sometimes it can be difficult to share the dark days with family & close friends, we try to be strong for them and to reassure them we are okay. You don't need to do that here...grieve for as long as you need, whenever you need. Grief is a process that is not to be rushed...it comes and goes in it's own time. Sometimes the sadness overwhelms you just when you think you've beaten it, it's okay. As time passes it becomes easier to remember the joyful moments and the laughter and to put aside the memories of pain and suffering. No one can tell you, you should 'move on' or get over it' by a certain time...the loss you feel is justified and you must allow yourself however much time you need. Try not to make major decisions right away, your heart needs time to heal and yes it is okay to laugh and to have fun when those moments arrive, there is no disrespect in that. Vann would want you to find happiness wherever you can...he is always with you and will forever be a part of your heart and soul.
Sending you love & hugs!!!
Diva

On 09/08/2009, Vivian said ...

I just found out about your sad news. My heart and prayers go out to you and Sophie. I want to thank you for sharing your feelings and faith through your writing on this blog. God has given you an incredible talent for writing and I can't wait to see more. Blessings and hugs!

On 09/08/2009, Karla said ...

Oh Susan, you can write about your grief and sadness and memories, and anything you need to write about. I think we would all agree we are here for you and I hope you can feel all of our hugs. I was reading your previous post and I think you are asking many of the questions I would be asking. Try to take things one day at a time or even moment to moment. You will find the answers as time goes on. Keeping you in my prayers.
Karla

On 09/08/2009, Katherine said ...

Susan - We both belong to the CPS group, and I've read your blog for a long time - commenting forever and a day ago. You are a talented artist and I enjoy looking at what you're working on.

Thank you for sharing your gorgeous flowers - and I can't tell you how sorry I am for your loss. I know you've been dealing with this for quite some time - and I'm not going to say I know how you feel, because I don't. I can only imagine...which makes my heart ache for you. I wish I could give you a big hug and sit with you.

I agree with everyone else - please don't censor yourself. At all! Everyone is here to support and love you...and even tho we may not have been in your situation, we are all aware how much you must hurt right now. That's why we're to share our love, thoughts, and prayers with you. It may not be much - but I hope you allow yourself to take in our caring and thoughtful wishes, as well as the offers of help from those around you.

I wish there was something I could do - you, Vann and Sophie will all be in my thoughts and prayers. I hope you have a good time with Sophie today - enjoy her company and spend the day doing what you want to do. I hope comfort and love surround you. xx

On 09/08/2009, Marie said ...

I hope Sophie had a great Sophie Day and I hope you did too.
The flowers are so pretty ~ I love the all white effect so much. Thanks for sharing those with us ~ and remember that your blog is the perfect place to share anything you need to share!

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Sunday, September 6, 2009

On Widowhood

I'm new at this, very new. I have observations. I have questions.

1. There's nothing romantic about being a widow.

2. In olden times, was it not enough that a woman should lose her husband? Did she have to wear ugly clothes as well?

3. Should I stop wearing my wedding ring?

4. When should I start getting rid of his stuff? True, I could use the drawer and closet space, but I think I'd rather have my teeth pulled without anesthetic than give his things away.

5. My throat is sore and my eyes are burning from the tears. But the tears are my friends. They keep me from screaming.

6. I can now decorate the house anyway I like. I can even paint everything pink if I want to.

7. Will I be able to pour those ashes out in Lake Seminole when the time comes?

8. The remote is mine now.

9. I'll have to learn to drive the riding lawnmower. Can't depend on the kindsness of neighbors forever.

10. How do I get rid of the lethargy? I need to put my neglected house back in order, but I can't seem to get started.

11. What do I do with the rest of my life that was supposed to be shared with him?

12. At least he didn't have to see Georgia lose their opening game last night.

13. Is it ok to use humor to get through this? Am I being disrespectful when I laugh?

14. What did I do to deserve him? What did I do to lose him? How will I live without him?

15. Does Sophie know where he is?

16. I know where he is.

17. I wish he were here.

18. Do I have to keep the recliner?

19. What did I forget to ask him? What did I forget to tell him?

20. Thank God, we never forgot to say "I love you."

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On 09/06/2009, Ruth Landon said ...

Susan you are so strong. The questions and statements are natural, its very early days, the answers will come to you when the time is right. Live one day at a time.
You and Vann were so lucky to have each other .

Ruth

On 09/06/2009, Beverly said ...

Susan, my heart is broken for you. Of course, I empathize. I have too wondered how you carry on without the most important person in your life. I wish I could give you a hug, and tell you that the hurt will go away, but you and I both know better. I do know that the constant raw pain will lessen. I also know that a part of your heart is no longer there with you.

You are good, and you are strong. And, your Vann knew it. You will make your way, and you will feel joy. He will be sharing each of those emotions with you. He was a gift for you from God, just as you were God's gift to him. You both lived your love well. He must know that he can always find his Susan in their Yellow House.

You did good. And, you will continue doing good.

I thought of you all day yesterday. My heart ached. Much love to you. Beverly

On 09/06/2009, Molly said ...

You can and you will get through this. Wear your wedding ring, let his belongings alone for now. Take your time, rash decisions are rarely good. By all means use humor as a healing aid! It is from God. And, please don't take to wearing ugly clothes!

Molly

On 09/06/2009, CarlaH said ...

Susan, I totally agree with Ruth. You and Vann were indeed fortunate in the wonderful relationship you shared and it is the memory of those years that you will remember as time goes by. Do as your heart (and physical strength) dictates - everything does not have to be dealt with immediately.

On 09/06/2009, sandy said ...

I'm so sorry Susan.

As others have said ... don't make decisions now. Wear your rings, keep his things. You might want to make a quilt with his clothes not only for yourself but children, grandchildren, siblings.

We're here for you day or night. It takes time. ((((((( hugs )))))))

On 09/06/2009, Margaret said ...

Susan, my heart goes out to you.
Allow yourself as much time as you need to make decisions. Give away or change things when YOU are ready, not when "they" say you ought to be. Wear the ring for the rest of your life if it gives you comfort. Write notes or letters to Vann in a journal. Ask him questions. Answers may come, from memory or other sources. I wish you wisdom, strength, and love.

On 09/06/2009, Donna said ...

Susan, I do know how you feel. It has been 6 long weeks since I lost my Amber suddenly. I am going to leave her room as is. I know it is different for a husband. People ask us if we are going to move. I say no! There are so many memories here in this house. We just completed a huge addition to this house for Amber with a new bedroom and a new roll-in shower in a new bathroom all for her. I have a huge box of her clothes I was going to give away prior to her passing. Now I am going to wait awhile and make a special quilt for her sister and myself. Amber had bought birthday stickers "The Big 30" to scrapbook and her album for her 30th birthday that would have been last Sunday. We had a birthday celebration of her life and I will DO that scrapbook. So just hang in there I know it is tough and life just doesn't seem fair sometimes. So you make your own decisions and do what you feel is right for you. I know from a broken hearted mother. God Bless You!
Donna

On 09/06/2009, Becky L said ...

Susan even though I don't know you, you are in my thoughts daily. Do what's right for you. Don't make quick decisions. Wear your rings and remember all the great things and times. Humor is a good thing. I think Vann would want you chuckling about stuff.
Becky

On 09/06/2009, Frank said ...

Susan..It seems you have many friends that care for you and are giving you some really good advice...It will take time and I might sugggest a support group thru church or someone...I know that helped me when my parents died...

On 09/06/2009, Gayle said ...

I have no idea of how it feels to lose a husband...I cant even begin to imagine, but I will say that after spending a year grieving the loss of my father, you do whatever YOU need to do this year...

...and grieve whenever you get the chance. Grieving is a gift in itself..."to everything there is a season and a purspose under heaven..."

...and thank you for sharing your love of Vann with us...his life has touched our lives.

On 09/06/2009, Judy Cloe said ...

I loved this blog. I think it is wonderful how you are using this to express your deepest feelings and thoughts at such a painful time. It will surely help you through the whole process.

My stepbrother's widow (he also died of pancreatic cancer 10 years ago) had a necklace medallion made out of both of their wedding rings.

My sister died 9 years ago. As she was a widow without children, I was responsible for her ashes. I have been taking some of her with me on all my travels around the world, leaving a part of her in some beautiful gardens and rivers on nearly every continent. No reason all of Vann's ashes have to be put in one place. When the time comes, you will know it.

On 09/06/2009, Carol R said ...

My husband died 20 years ago this past March. He left me with a young son (3 years old) to raise. It does get easier with time, but I still miss him. I had a lot of advice from various people, but the best came from my Mother-in-law (a widow herself, twice over) "When the time is right for you to do something, the Lord will let you know."

On 09/06/2009, Mary on Lake Pulaski said ...

All things that you need to work through, with patience, faith and laughter.

On 09/06/2009, Molly in Sumner, WA said ...

Susan,
My heart goes out to you for your loss. Do whatever it is that makes you feel better. Cry when you need to. Laugh when you need to. There is no rule book for this and nobody can tell you how you 'should' grieve. I will say that sewing is my own personal therapy, so give it a try. Just do some mindless 4-patches and see how you feel.

On 09/06/2009, Lallee said ...

Susan, that is a very provoking list you have written. I do not want to advise--as if I were even able. My response is that I have 3 wishes/prayers for you.
For you to:
1. Grieve well, embrace mourning as long as you know YOU need to. God gives you tears.

2. Laugh well. There is joy and humor in every part of life. God gives you laughter.

3. Don't change or give away anything until YOU are ready. God gives you the seasons.

Thinking of you and continuing to pray.
Hugs,
Lallee

On 09/06/2009, Marie said ...

I totally agree with Molly - especially about humor coming from God and the ugly clothes bit. : )

I'll be praying that the Lord gives you direction, peace & comfort each new day that you face. I also thank God, with you, that you & Vann never forgot to say "I love you" to each other. What a sweet reminder that is to each of us.

Trust in the LORD with all your heart,
And lean not on your own understanding;
In all your ways acknowledge Him,
And He shall direct your paths.
Proverbs 3:5-6

On 09/06/2009, Pat said ...

Oh, my dear. I have not been down this road so I don't know what to tell you. Except - handle this the way your heart tells you. Yes, humor is great - I loved reading your list and seeing you ask questions we might be afraid to, but still go through our minds. God has your tears in a bottle; He knows every one of them. Keep Writing! Keep doing what you love.

On 09/06/2009, Lavender Dreams said ...

Give everything time. Don't rush into anything that you don't feel like doing and let others help you. I know it was a blessing to have him and it will be hard now but God will give you the strength you need. God bless you and help you through this trying time. Humor is always helpful!

On 09/06/2009, Sherry Whisenhunt said ...

Susan,
You're facing the fear that most women our age dread and handling it the only way you can--that's what's right for you. I learned with my first traumatic loss, my father, that when we grieve, we also laugh. I believe it's God's safety valve that keeps us sane. Otherwise, we would be in such despair that we couldn't bear it. And they would want us to laugh, to smile, to go on with our lives. Probably the greatest fear any of us have in leaving this life is leaving our loved ones behind, leaving them sad, defenseless, lonely. I'm so glad you had him, no matter how briefly.

On 09/06/2009, quiltmom( anna) said ...

Susan,
You will find the answers to your questions as time goes on- the answers will be the ones that are right for you.
Do not rush into any decisions and allow yourself to grieve. You are surrounded by people who care deeply about you- embrace their comfort and love. Vann knew how strong you are- you are learning the depth of your strength too.
Sending you warm thoughts and prayers.
Warmest regards,
Anna

On 09/06/2009, Joan Kennedy said ...

I liked Judy's comment. Wonderful idea she had of taking some of her sister's ashes on all of her travels. You know Vann best and you will know what he would want you to do when the time comes to do it. I also think that the way you are sharing with people on this web site is very healthy for you. Plus, people are able to try to console you with their comments and with their prayers! You, most definitely, are loved!

On 09/06/2009, Mary said ...

Susan, I just pray that God will cover you with His comfort, His courage, and His love...He is now your husband, and will never, ever leave or forsake you. I'm sure you said everything that your sweet husband needed to hear, and if you didn't say it, he knew it anyway. Bless you, sweet Susan!

Mary

On 09/06/2009, Nancy said ...

Susan, I have tried to imagine how I would feel had it been my loss. I can't. The only thing I do know it that my heart hurts so bad for you. You and Vann were so much like Bob and I, even our little dog, Sadie Jo, is a black Schnauzer Poodle mix and believe me when I say she and Sophie are identical...IDENTICAL twins. You and I enjoy the same books and the list goes on. You list of thoughts and questions touched me so deeply that words can't express the feelings that washed over me as I read them. I don't think anyone can answer them except you and the answers will all come when the time is right. I agree with those that say you need to give yourself some time to grieve. I think I would ask myself what Vann would say to each of your questions and dilema's. You will know. For now, please know that you are in my prayers constantly for comfort and peace and my thoughts of you are filled with love.

On 09/06/2009, Karen said ...

Dear Susan - I thought of you this morning as we sang this verse in a hymn I'm certain is familiar to you . . . "When through the deep waters I call thee to go, The rivers of woe shall not thee overflow; For I will be with thee, they troubles to bless, And sanctify to thee thy deepest distress." Laugh when you can, wear your wedding ring as long as you like, and take your time making decisions.

On 09/06/2009, Kristine said ...

When the time comes for you to let go of his things, you'll know. Don't rush yourself.
Wear your ring as long as you like. Momma gave me her wedding set just this year, Dad died Jan. 1 2002.
There's nothing wrong with humor and laughter.
There's also nothing wrong with crying and screaming.

Make yourself a Super Hero cape to wear while cutting grass.

I love you
Kristine

On 09/06/2009, sherri said ...

SUsan you are in my daily prayers and thoughts. I have nothing to say but God hears your prayers.
Love, Sherri

On 09/06/2009, Marie Evans said ...

Susan you are in my prayers and thought.Time is on your side and it will show you what to do and when, there is no rush.God Bless you.Hugs, Marie

On 09/06/2009, Linda J.W. said ...

Susan what can I say that these sweet Lady's
hasn't already said.My prayers are with you.
Keep busy do what you won't to do.
Love You
Linda W.

On 09/06/2009, Deb said ...

Susan ~ only you could have written such a touching blog post as this! I'm copying below a poem that's meant a lot to me...ships are usually known as "she", and that's the way the author wrote this, but I changed it to "he" for Vann.

"I am standing upon the seashore.
A ship at my side spreads his white
sails to the morning breeze and starts
for the blue ocean.

He is an object of beauty and strength.
I stand and watch him until at length
he hangs like a speck of white cloud
just where the sea and sky come
to mingle with each other.

Then, someone at my side says;
"There, he is gone!"

"Gone where?"
Gone from my sight. That is all.
He is just as large in mast and hull
and spar as he was when he left my side
and he is just as able to bear his
load of living freight to his destined port.
His diminished size is in me, not in him.

And just at the moment when someone
at my side says, "There, he is gone!"
There are other eyes watching his coming,
and other voices ready to take up the glad shout;

"Here he comes!"

And that is dying."

~Henry Van Dyke

On 09/06/2009, Pokey said ...

You made me cry. And laugh. Wear the ring- it just doesn't feel right not to. Keep going. you are in thoughts and prayers. pokey

On 09/06/2009, Alison Gibbs said ...

Susan, so long as you said I love you, then you have nothing to worry about or feel sorry for not doing. Love is all that matters.
There is no right or wrong way to handle widowhood just do what feels right for you.
Vann would not want you moping about he would want you out there getting on with life and enjoying yourself
Alison

On 09/06/2009, Barbara Anne said ...

Hi sweetie,

As has been said, take it a day at a time, laugh all you want to and can because that honors the laughter you two shared, and take you time with all of the rest. There is no hurry to change anything unless you choose to.

My mother said one thing helped her sleep alone and that was a body pillow she bought and put on Dad's side of the bed. One of her friends suggested it. My mother also never took off her wedding rings.

Blessings. May the peace that passes understanding be yours.

Love and hugs - Barbara

On 09/06/2009, Jean Brannon said ...

I have heard that you do nothing different
for at least one year. You will figure it
out as time goes by. Love you, Jean

On 09/07/2009, Debra Spincic said ...

My only advice for you is to REST!

Let everyone help you who can help you. There will come a day when you can return the favor but that day is not now.

Take care of yourself. Vann's things can wait. You've lived with them this long, you can live with them longer. They may prove to be the presence you need right now. Grief is tricky-it runs the full gamut of emotions and you are in for a real roller coaster ride so keep as much normal as you can right now.

Crawl up in that recliner with Sophie and take a big long nap in Vann's arms. I am sure you need it.

Sending love,
Debra

On 09/07/2009, Debra Spincic said ...

All I can suggest for you now is to Rest!

Let those that can help you, help you. One day you can repay the favor but today is not that day.

Crawl up in that big ole recliner with Sophie and have a good long nap in Vann's arms. I am sure you need it. Grief runs the full gamut of emotions and you need life to be as close to normal as possible now. Vann's things can wait. You've lived with them this long, you can live with them longer.

Sending love,
Debra

On 09/07/2009, kim said ...

Susan,

I am so sorry. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family!

Reading your posts made me cry and smile. I would definately wear the ring and I loved the idea of making quilts from Vann's clothes.

Big Hugs!

Kim

On 09/07/2009, Mollye Self said ...

Oh Susan, I feel so compelled to share my "widow hood" with you. My hubby died at age 47 3/3/2000 and I was 56. He was my second husband and we'd been married 15 years. He died of liver disease and was a horrible death. I had a faith that saw me through it and I know yours will not fail, but I also adopted some little rituals at bedtime involving sleeping with his shirt, listening to a special tape etc. crying myself to sleep and much praying. I took on two part time jobs to keep busy. I did well in the daytime and eventually began going out with gal friends who were single. In about a year and a half, I began to realize I was still living and began "dating". I re-married in 2004 to a wonderful man and am so blessed. I still visit the grave on special days and keep it up. I miss him but wouldn't want him back as sick as he was and am so thankful I found the most wonderful and kind man I ever imagined to know. Please don't try to put a time limit on anything you do. Just get through each hour and each day as best you can and God will walk with you and when he knows you are strong enought to do certain things, he will let you know. Best wishes to you. Mollye

On 09/07/2009, Kai said ...

I have tried - really TRIED - 3 times to answer this but had to go away a bit & cry my heart out. You are my hero, Susan. There's nothing new I can possibly add to these beautiful, insightful comments except to say follow your heart & grieve in your OWN way & in your own time. And please, when you feel alone, come back to this post & reread the comments. You are so loved, and we - your friends - are HERE for you! I love you!

On 09/07/2009, Lori in SD said ...

So many words of wisdom. Don't lose your humor. Cry when you need to. And the Superman cape, yeah, I like that idea. .

On 09/08/2009, Rian said ...

Your random thoughts are so poignant. Isn't it funny the things that come to mind? Don't forget to laugh. Above all.

On 09/08/2009, Pam said ...

That is such a poignant post. Keep laughing and crying because it is such comfort and you will never ever forget. My heart aches for you. I think the most touching part of the post is - What did I forget to ask him? What did I forget to tell him? You will - years from now - still have things that you want to tell him. My first husband died twenty years ago last June. I cry with you some days when I read your posts. I think of you often.
Pam

On 09/11/2009, *karendianne. said ...

Susan,

I come back to this post again and again. I never comment. You're in a good place - healing. I'm still here because of the example you showed by bearing your truth. With admiration and love, *karendianne.

On 09/15/2009, Laurie said ...

Susan, your post was so bittersweet. The answer to all those "when" and "should" questions is: do it however you want to do it. Wear your ring forever if you want to. Thank you for sharing your feelings with us.

On 09/28/2013, Andy said ...

I don't know what brought me to this post today. I guess I just have Vann on my mind. And, you. Reading this brought everything back. I am crying now. But, reading this post it seems you have figured most of it out. You are doing so good, and I am so proud of you. I love you.
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Saturday, September 5, 2009

Day 3

In a few hours, we're going to the church to celebrate the life of a man who will be forever tied to my heart. I rejoice that he's home, where he was so ready to go. I rejoice and thank God that he no longer feels the pain and humiliation of cancer.

When I think of the days and months and years ahead, I can't even imagine life without Vann. But he left me well prepared to carry on, he made me confident that I can do it. I miss him on this the third day since he left this life. And I know I'll miss him every day until we're reunited in whatever form souls take after death. He's waiting for us somewhere over there, Sophie. My heart knows it, and I believe yours does too.

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On 09/05/2009, Barbara Anne said ...

Dear heart, Love and prayers are with you today as you prepare for Vann's service and will be with you in the days and weeks to come. Your family and friends will be with you as will sweet Sophie. Vann will remain near to you in heart, soul, and spirit because you and he are part of each other.

One day at a time, dear, one day at a time.

Grace and peace and hugs - Barbara

On 09/05/2009, Gayle said ...

Lighting a candle for your remarkable husband this morning. God bless you and your family and friends.

On 09/05/2009, Dandelion Quilts said ...

You're right Susan. He is no longer in pain or suffering, he is rejoicing. I know days ahead with be rough on you, know that you are not alone. You are surrounded by prayers.

On 09/05/2009, Ruth Landon said ...

May the love of God be with you today, I know that Vann's presence will be with you in church.
Love and prayers for you as you move forward.
Ruth

On 09/05/2009, Mollye said ...

Oh Yes Susan, You bet he is and will be watching over you until that time. Hang onto that glorious and beautiful faith and God will lead you through the rest of your suffering.

On 09/05/2009, Tina said ...

Susan, May the peace of the Holy Spirit fill you today. I am sorry that I will not be able to be there with you today but you will be in my heart.

On 09/05/2009, Carol said ...

Lots of good thoughts and many prayers for you.

On 09/05/2009, Sandy said ...

Death is just the beginning for a Christian. What a wonderful God we have that had such a wonderful plan for his children in that we live forever. He is so good. He is so faithful. We will all be with you in spirit today and will continue to pray for you and yours thru the days and months ahead. May the strength and peace that comes only thru the Lord be yours today and forever.

On 09/05/2009, Marie said ...

I'm praying that the Lord strengthens you for the coming days...and that you're calmed by His peace and encouraged by His presence. May the grace of God sustain you.

On 09/05/2009, Ann Yeckley said ...

Susan,

God has so blessed you and Vann and I can only imagine your life without him by your side. However, I'm sure Vann will always be with you in spirit. I must tell you, I have so admired your Christian faith and I know it will make you even stronger in the days to come.

We have a family situation that will not allow us to be with you today, but you and your family are in our prayers.

Ann & George

On 09/05/2009, Joan Kennedy said ...

Susan, I remember the first time I saw you and Vann and you told me you were married to him. I was so happy for you because you looked happier than I had ever seen you! I know your heart is so heavy now, but I KNOW that God will sustain you through this time and the days to come. Hold fast to His hand and remember that this is one of those times when "it was then that I carried you"!

On 09/05/2009, Red Geranium Cottage said ...

Susan I'll be thinking of you today. You'll get thru just fine. You know that Vann is in a better pain free place. He's watching over you and Sophie.
Hugs
Sharon

On 09/05/2009, Nancy said ...

Susan,
Your post assures me that God has you wrapped firmly in his glorious blankent of comfort, peace and healing for the pain of your loss. Even though your loss is so profound I can't imagine it, but with God by your side and in your heart, I know you will make it through. I know He is watching over you, Sophie, and your family. What a wonderful celebration of Vann's life it will be today. My constant prayers and thoughts are with you all. God Bless and Keep.

On 09/05/2009, Phyllis said ...

I understand your pain because I was in your same position 3 yr. ago with my husband's death from cancer. It isn't easy making a life without your best buddy but with God, friends, family and taking only tiny steps each day, it's possible. When even tiny steps aren't possible, crawl to your sewing room and get busy! Many prayers, Phyllis in Minnesota

On 09/05/2009, Donna said ...

My thoughts and prayers are with you. May you find peace and God will comfort you and your family

On 09/05/2009, Linda J.W. said ...

My prayers are you and your family.You take care of yourself and Sophie.
Linda W.

On 09/05/2009, Deb said ...

Susan,
Much love to take you through the day. Thank God that Vann and you were prepared, thank God that Vann is no longer having to deal with such a disease and Thank God that he has left you with all of us to fight another day. Take small steps on the long road ahead , allow for pot holes but know that your darling man is always with you and yes you will be together again, one day.

On 09/05/2009, Mona said ...

Susan, I feel so sad for you today. My heart is just breaking. I happened on your blog only a week or so ago and the first thing I saw was your husband Vann's sweet face. I don't know why, but I just could feel his sweetness over the internet. Maybe he reminds me of my sweet Dan. There's something so solid and comforting about these sweet guys who don't demand glory or attention, just a quiet, sweet, solid presence in everyone's life. I know your life now will be more empty; nothing can take Vann's place in your life. Know that I will be praying for you, and especially for Vann today. Thank you for sharing this special man. Mona

On 09/05/2009, Trudy Neill of Windemere Farm said ...

My dear Susan,

Have thought of you the entire day. We are so blessed to have friends that help us along the way...the ones who listen, who give advice if asked, who walk the stoney paths with us and hold our hands to keep us from falling, who are silent when the glorious sunsets come and the storms roll in as well. You are deeply blessed as you have so many friends who will be right there with you...always. I am relieved for Vann that he has crossed into the perfect place, for I believe to be absent from us here on earth, is to be present with our Father. Love, Trudy

On 09/05/2009, Sara Richards said ...

Hi

I lost my husband of 29 years 5 years ago. At first it was a minute at a time, then two, then an hour. One day I could smile, the next day I cried and could not cope.I did not know I could cry so much at that time. What had to be endured - was endured.

Life will never be the same. But there is hope..

You will find new friends in unexpected places.
You will find new roads to travel down.

You will never forget this man to whom you were so closely linked and he will always be there, somehow, in a hundred little ways to remind you of his presence as my late husband is with me.

You honour him here in these postings. I honour your bravery in sharing all of this.

God Bless

Sara

On 09/05/2009, Iva said ...

My heart aches for you and the loss of your love and friend. May your memories of him and your faith in God bring you comfort and strength through these difficult times.

On 09/05/2009, Edna J. Patterson-Petty said ...

Hi Susan,
Don't know if you remember me, I participated in two of many altered books (round-robin)Blessings to you in your hours of need. I think it is so brave of you to share the upheavals of you and Vann's life together "out loud".
My husband is sick and has been for a while, and he is getting weaker. I take strength from you in taking each day at a time and relishing in those days of love and laughter, and even loving through the pain and the tears. May God continue to bless you. Edna in IL.

On 09/05/2009, Nicole said ...

Courage dear friend. The love of God surrounds you.

On 09/05/2009, Pokey said ...

It is the greatest gift when your spouse is also your best friend. It's also the biggest loss to lose them. I'm rejoicing in the fact that he is no longer in pain, and sorrowing for your loss. You are being thought of and remembered in prayer by many of us who will never know you outside of the computer page, my friend! You do have that blessed hope of heaven.
A wise Christian "Mom" of mine told me to start a thankfulness journal. List the things you have to be thankful for, so that "in everything give thanks" can be put into practice. It may help you to see the hope and future God has for you. God bless you. pokey

On 09/06/2009, Sew Cal Gal said ...

I am truly sorry for your loss. I wish I had some magical dust and could sprinkle it and make Greg appear and all this pain & sadness go away, but I can't. I don't even have magical words to help. He was a special man, whom will be missed by many. But my heart tells me he will still be walking with you, standing by you, watching over you...every day.

Hugs, many hugs.

SewCalGal
www.sewcalgal.blogspot.com

On 09/06/2009, quiltmom( anna) said ...

Dear Susan,
I wish that there was something that I could say that would take away the grief and sorrow of losing your beloved Vann. I can only wish you comfort from your loved ones and support when your sorrow overwhelms you.
My thoughts and prayers are with you and yours- wishing you a beautiful celebration of Vann's life.
Warmest regards,
Anna

On 09/06/2009, Alison Gibbs said ...

Susan my thoughts are with you and your family.
Take care
Alison

On 09/06/2009, Debra Spincic said ...

Crying a little for you today and sharing the heavy load with you. I know you understand but your heart breaks anew every day anyway.

Peace and love,
Debra

On 09/08/2009, Rian said ...

Susan, you are a remarkable woman, your strength and spirit have touched me in ways you can't imagine. Maybe you can. You and Vann have never been very far from my thoughts and I appreciate your sharing your grief and loss with us. Bless you.
Rian
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Thursday, September 3, 2009

A Godly Man

Last night, about 25 friends from the neighborhood gathered in Paul's driveway to remember our sweet Vann. There were lots of stories, laughter, and tears. There was also pizza, thanks to Paul.

One of our good friends, neighbor Danny Heisner went home later and wrote this poem in tribute to Vann.

Today we lost a Godly man,
our caring friend and neighbor, Vann.
He and Sophie went on patrol,
to keep us safe, that was his goal.
Now he's patrolling from above,

looking after us in love.
We mourn the loss of a man so great
and yet we still can celebrate.
For him there now is no more pain.
There isn't any suffering.
He's singing praises to his Lord,
who died for him and whose blood poured.
He's meeting all the saints of old
and walking on the streets of gold.
He's touring that beautiful heavenly place,
and meeting Jesus face to face.
We miss your presence here on earth,
but celebrate your new found birth.
Vann, you left a legacy.
You lived a life for all to see.
For we could see the Christ in you,
a Godly man through and through.
On this earth we will abide,
'til we see you on the other side.

Vann, if I can be half the man you were, I'll be doing good.

Susie and the kids, God bless you! We are here for you if you need anything
Danny, Becky, Jonathon, Andrew, Raeann, and Sam

Vann's Memorial Service will be at 11:00 a.m. on Saturday, September 5, 2009, at Leeds First United Methodist Church.

Thank you all for your comments and notes of condolence. Thanks for sticking with us through this journey. Vann always loved the prayers and notes you left.

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On 09/03/2009, Molly said ...

I woke up thinking of Sophie! She's gonna miss her daddy. Praying continually for you and yours.

On 09/03/2009, Diana said ...

My prayers are with you. My God keep you and your family in his embrace.

On 09/03/2009, Marie said ...

What a lovely tribute. Lifting you and yours in prayer....

On 09/03/2009, Kris said ...

This is the first time I have been to you blog and I am so sorry to find you in so much sorrow. Your husband looked and sounded like wonderful man. May the peace of the Lord be with you and your family.

On 09/03/2009, Janet said ...

Lovely poem. You and Vann are blessed to have such friends.

On 09/03/2009, Donna said ...

Susan, I have been thinking about you. The poem is beautiful. I am crying thinking about my daughter, Amber, but I know she is out of her wheelchair running again and I know we will see each other again. Vann has gone to be with my precious Amber. God Bless

On 09/03/2009, Loribelle said ...

That poem is awesome. He's right, Vann did leave a legacy. The question on my mind is...did he teach you how to ride the four wheeler? ;-) We love you and are here for you always, Suzie. L, G, D & C (woof)

On 09/03/2009, dorothy said ...

i'm so sorry. what a tribute to Vann's life that his friends and family were all around him. take care of yourself as i'm sure you're running around taking care of everybody else.

On 09/03/2009, Red Geranium Cottage said ...

Aren't friends just the best Susan? Very nice poem.

On 09/03/2009, Kai said ...

Susan, you are TRULY the strongest person I know. And I am well aware of where you get your strength. Both you AND Vann have believed in LIVING your faith, not just mouthing it. That's a beautiful testimony and Vann is now reaping the rewards! I haven't STOPPED thinking of you since I read the news yesterday. I've cried myself dry. But seeing this post and the picture of a healthier Vann with his sidekick Sophie has finally made me smile. I love you! And I am HERE if you need ANYTHING.

On 09/03/2009, Nancy said ...

Susan, there are no words to express the sorrow that filled my heart and soul when I opened the page and found your dear Vann had returned to his Savior. All I can do is offer my sincere condolences and keep you and your family in my prayers.

On 09/03/2009, Lettie said ...

What a beautiful poem. You are blessed to have such wonderful neighbors. Take care, friend.

On 09/03/2009, Joyce said ...

What a wonderful poem and Danny did an excellent job capturing the wonderful man we all knew and loved and he will always be with us! Thanks Susan for sharing this. We love you and pray for God's continued strength for you and all of the family as you deal with the loss of the man you loved so much. Joyce & Chuck

On 09/03/2009, Rita Bose said ...

I have read your blog for sometime now and have enjoyed your family stories.I'm sorry to hear of Vann's passing but I understand the releive of his suffering. Let friends and family help fill a part of the space his leaving has left in your life. A good cry with a friend heals much.
Rita

On 09/03/2009, Pesky Patti said ...

Dear Susan,

When such tragedies happen to someone I care about I am at a loss for words. My heart sank to learn of Vann's passing. Thank the Lord for your belief in Him. You have a wonderful support group at church and home. Give Sophie lots of hugs.

On 09/03/2009, jeanne said ...

Dear Susan, My heart is broken for you and your family in the loss of your dear Vann. The tribute poem his friend wrote is so beautiful. It describes what a wonderful guy Vann was.

My sincere sympathy and love goes out to you and your families. I am certain in one thing. He was loved and very dearly thought of by his fellow man. A wonderful legacy for Vann, a Godly man.

Love, Jeanne

On 09/03/2009, Kim said ...

You've lost a good man. I am so very sorry to hear this heartwrenching news about Vann. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers. My sympathy to you and your family.

On 09/03/2009, Diana said ...

I am so sorry to hear about Vann. What a great tribute to have his neighbors and friends feel so strongly about his life! Hugs to you and your family.

On 09/03/2009, sherri said ...

Awww man! What a bummer you are in my prayers and thoughts. Blessings,

On 09/03/2009, Lavender Dreams said ...

What a wonderful tribute. Our thoughts and prayers are with you. God bless you.

On 09/03/2009, Sandy said ...

I just opened my blogs and read that your darling Vann has gone Home to be with our Lord...Bless you, I know you must be hurting..I feel as tho I know both of you, just reading your blog. May the Lord guide and take care of you..love

On 09/03/2009, Dandelion Quilts said ...

What a loving thought shared. Susan, you and your family are in my prayers. I am so sorry to hear that Vann passed on.

On 09/03/2009, Barbara Anne said ...

What a beautiful tribute.

In this huge big wide world, I'm so glad you and Vann found each other. May the wonderful memories you made together give you comfort.

Blessings

On 09/03/2009, Penny @ Lavender Hill Studio & The Comforts of Home said ...

What a lovely tribute to a wonderful man. I am sending comforting hugs from far away.
Hugs,
Penny

On 09/03/2009, Joanne said ...

Thanks for sharing the wonderful poem. It really expresses how we all feel about Vann. Take care of yourself and Sophie. God bless.

On 09/03/2009, Marla Southers said ...

I have never read your blog before but found you thru others. I am so very sorry for your loss of your wonderful husband. What strength and endurance the Lord has given you to be able to be with him each step of the way.

On 09/03/2009, Loretta said ...

Oh, Susan, I'm so sorry to read about Vann's passing. I read your blog everyday and I want you to know that your have my sincere sympathy. May every dawn give your strength and every dusk give you peace.
Loretta

On 09/03/2009, Carol said ...

What a beautiful tribute to Vann...my thoughts and prayers are with you!

On 09/03/2009, Lynne in Hawaii said ...

Susan, I know you and Sophie will miss your Vann. He was valiant in his fight. The poem is a wonderful tribute too. I am grateful you allowed us to come along with you and Vann on this journey. You are a special, wonderful lady. Vann is no longer in pain and he will protect you from above. Our prayers for your peace and support are ongoing.

On 09/03/2009, Bo said ...

Susan and family, I am so sorry for your loss. Vann was an inspiration to all of us that knew him. He will be missed so much. God bless you all.

On 09/03/2009, Angie/sweetbabies00 said ...

What a lovely tribute to Vann. You all are in my prayers.

On 09/03/2009, Perry said ...

What a wonderful tribute. From the way you have always talked about Vann I figured he was an exceptional person. Evidently a lot of people think so. God bless!

On 09/03/2009, Marcia said ...

What a beautiful tribute to your wonderful husband. I'm sure God has used his story in ways that will only be known in heaven. You're family is in my prayers.
Blessings,
Marcia

On 09/03/2009, Tamara said ...

I know words can express my sympathy for you and your family. That poem was a tremendous witness of your husband and his faith that was seen by all. I hope your pain is eased a bit by knowing he is not suffering and is with God, and someday you will be there too. This was the only solace I had when I lost my mother-in-law to cancer.

On 09/03/2009, Kelee Katillac said ...

Dear Beautiful Susan:

I am struggling to see the keypad through my tears.I feel like I knew Vann. Your lovely blog shared him so well. My heart grieves for the loss of your truest friend and partner.

I am grateful he is home and restored to wellness now.

"I know that you are being comforted by the Divine right now."

In my thoughts----

kelee

On 09/03/2009, Deb said ...

Susan, what a beautiful heartfelt tribute to your special man. He has been loved by many and always be loved by those who are able to carry special memories of him. Our love continues for you to help you through.

On 09/03/2009, Sally said ...

My thoughts and prayers are with your family.

On 09/03/2009, carol broughton said ...

I am so very sorry about the loss of your beloved husband. The poem was lovely and I pray that you are comforted in the love of your family, friends and your faith.

On 09/03/2009, Laurie said ...

I'm so glad you have such wonderful neighbors and friends to lift you up right now. Hugs.

On 09/03/2009, Kirby and Beth said ...

Susan and family: We here in Esterbrook, Wyoming, grieve the loss of such a dear friend and gentleman, Vann. We loved his visits and seeing sheer joy light up his face when he saw these magnificent mountains! We know that our Lord and Saviour cradled and carried him home. God is indeed merciful! We shall miss him dearly but have our memories of him stored within our hearts. God's peace to you and yours.

On 09/04/2009, Wendy said ...

Susan, I am so sorry that you and Van lost the fight. Van will always exist in your and your families hearts and I truly believe that if you continue talk to Van, he will answer you. Take strength from wherever you can.

On 09/04/2009, *karendianne. said ...

Oh this is is beautiful, Susan. It helps me to know more about the Man he was. Such a loving tribute.

Prayerfully, *karendianne.

On 09/04/2009, Mollye said ...

Dear Susan, I have been reading much of your blog all morning and am so uplifted by your courage. What a wonderful guy Vann was. I'll be back. Love and best wishes to you and your family, Mollye

On 09/04/2009, victoria_greer@bellsouth.net said ...

Susan, We all have such wonderful memories of Vann and will miss him so much. He just lit up a room when he walked in, and that grin of his. . .
What a blessing that the two of you found love together. Thank you for sharing through your blog, it is really wonderful.

On 09/04/2009, Linda J.W. said ...

Oh Susan and family,my heart is heavy for you,I am so sorry, but Vann is in a better place.I know that doesn't make it any easier.I lost my Mother Feb.28th after she turned 89 in the hospital.I was suppose to
send you something for your Totem.I wrote
you and told you that i couldn't put in in the mail,you wrote me back and told me that
was the last thing i needed to worry about.
I promise it will be soon in the mail.
God Bless
Linda W. from Texas

On 09/04/2009, Jeanne said ...

Although I didn't personally know your husband, I send my sympathy to you and those around you who loved him. May God keep you close during this difficult time and grant you peace.

On 09/04/2009, Stefanie said ...

Although we have never met, just remember that you are not alone!

Reach out and lots of people will be there!

On 09/04/2009, Rian said ...

Susan, I will be thinking of you (and Vann) tomorrow during the memorial service. I keep thinking, "There, but for the grace of God, go I." I went through similar travails with JJ and his kidney cancer, not to mention a host of other ailments for several years--and thus Vann's passing hit me hard. I don't know how you are getting through this, but I believe your faith and your spirit will see you through. Best wishes and love to you and Sophie.

On 09/04/2009, Debra in Ohio said ...

thoughts and prayers your way.
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Wednesday, September 2, 2009

In Precious, Loving Memory

Donald Vann Cleveland

December 7, 1945 - September 2-2009

Our love goes with you, Boo.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CRyKg5xMaXA

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On 09/02/2009, Nicole said ...

Oh no. Susan, my deepest love and sympathy.

On 09/02/2009, Sandy said ...

Oh Susan. My heart breaks for you and all of your family. I have been keeping a daily vigil on your blog and praying for all of you for a while. I am truly sorry for your loss. I will continue to pray for peace for all of you and comfort as you mourn.

On 09/02/2009, Tina said ...

Susan, you are in my heart and in my prayers. May you be granted the peace of God's love.

On 09/02/2009, Marie said ...

I'm so sorry ~ you are in my prayers. I pray the Lord comforts you and fills you with His peace.

On 09/02/2009, Sandy said ...

Be sure and check the Promise of Prayer post on the right of the screen for a message from Amy about her Dad's homegoing.

On 09/02/2009, renee shaffer said ...

oh susan. i am so sorry for your loss. may God be with you and your family during this time. again so very sorry.
renee

On 09/02/2009, Xina said ...

OH! My heart is breaking for you. You and family will be in my prayers.

On 09/02/2009, Molly said ...

I am so, so sorry Susan. Peace to you, the kids, Vann's family and friends.

Our death is not an end if we can live on in our children and the younger generation. For they are us, our bodies are only wilted leaves on the tree of life. ~Albert Einstein

On 09/02/2009, Lisa D. said ...

Oh Susan, I am so saddened for your immense loss. I can't even begin to imagine what you are going through. Your family is in my prayers.

On 09/02/2009, Melinda said ...

Susan - I am so sorry to hear about your loss. I have been following your updates every day. I am praying for you in this time of sorrow.

Melinda

On 09/02/2009, Cathi said ...

I am so sorry. My deepest sympathy to you and your children.

On 09/02/2009, Abby said ...

I am so sorry. Peace be with you.

On 09/02/2009, anita said ...

I'm so sorry, Susan. You have my deepest sympathy, and my prayers.

On 09/02/2009, Nancy Duanvant said ...

Susan~ You and all your family & friends have been providing a loving, spirit-filled, peaceful "Homecoming" for Vann. No doubt he was blessed by the gift of so much love and care.

On 09/02/2009, Mary Jo Jones said ...

I am so sorry to read your entry today. My thoughts and prayers go out to you and your family. He must have been a wonderful man. He was very lucky to have you by his side, Hugs

On 09/02/2009, Wendy said ...

So sorry for your loss. I have kept you both in my prayers. I will continue to pray for you. It is such a good thing to have so many people in your life who love you and Vann. I know you will have much support and love to get you through.

He is with God now and knows no pain.

On 09/02/2009, marci said ...

i have been following anonymously for a while. my heart and prayers go out to you and your family today and in the coming days. i am so sorry for the road you have had to walk and the road you will be now be on. May God wrap His arms around you all and hold you close.

marci

On 09/02/2009, Janet said ...

More prayers for you and your family at this difficult time.

On 09/02/2009, Wilma said ...

I am sorry for your loss. I log on everyday to check on how Vann and you are doing. I wish there was something I could say or do. You all are in my prayers and thoughts.

On 09/02/2009, Cindy said ...

We are so sorry to hear of your loss. May God give you the comfort and strength you will need.
Much Love
Cindy

On 09/02/2009, Ruth Landon said ...

I send my love and symphathy to you Susan and your family for the loss of Vann. I feel that I know you both from your Blog, and know what a brave and faithful couple you were. Hoping that the love of family and friends and your faith will help you through this very difficult time.
Ruth

On 09/02/2009, Carey said ...

I was saddened to read your post this morning. I have been following your blog for quite some time and am sorry my first message to you is at such a time. My thoughts are with you and your family.

On 09/02/2009, Jan Melton said ...

I am so sorry for your loss. I know you are so thankful for all the years you had with him and in knowing he is in Heaven, where there is no suffering.

On 09/02/2009, Loribelle said ...

We love you, Suzie, and will miss Vann terribly. Loribelle, Greg & Dai Dai

On 09/02/2009, Kai said ...

My heart is on the ground for you and your family, Susan. My prayers continue for all of you as you mourn the loss of that sweet, sweet man. I am HERE for whatever you may need that I can do. I love you! Kai

On 09/02/2009, Red Geranium Cottage said ...

Oh Susan my thoughts and prayers are so with you and your family at this time. We all feel like we know Vann and you personally as we have followed you in this whole journey. I am sooooo soooo very sorry. Please know that I my heart sank as I read this. I know he just came home yesterday.
Love
Sharon

On 09/02/2009, melzie said ...

Oh no, I saw this and my heart just sank. I am so so sorry, you will be in my prayers and thoughts as you deal with this unreal time. Much love to you. Melzie

On 09/02/2009, ~Tonya said ...

Dearest Susan,

I am so sorry for your loss of your beloved husband, Vann. Know you and your family are in my thoughts and prayers. Words cannot take away your pain, but know that you are in my thoughts and prayers.

May you be able to find peace, strength and the will, that you neeed during this very difficult time.

Know that Vann is in God's hands now and is no longer in pain.

Blessings and Prayers,
~Tonya

On 09/02/2009, Bev said ...

I'm so sorry for your loss. May God's peace comfort you and know that for Vann, death is past and pain ended and he has entered the joy prepared for him.

On 09/02/2009, Pam Schroeder said ...

May you feel God's presence as he surrounds you with the comfort of family and friends. I'm so sorry you've had to travel this road. PAM

On 09/02/2009, Sara said ...

I am heart broken for you and your family.
Love to you all.

On 09/02/2009, Connie W said ...

Heartfelt sympathy for your great loss, many cyber-hugs. Connie W

On 09/02/2009, Amy Rochelle said ...

Susan, I am so sorry for your loss. You and your family will be in my prayers.

On 09/02/2009, sandy said ...

I'm so sorry. ((((( hugs )))))

On 09/02/2009, Penny @ Lavender Hill Studio & The Comforts of Home said ...

Dear Susan,
I am so sorry for your loss. Vann in at peace now. I am sending my love and extra strenght to you at your time of sorrow.

Is there anything I can do for you?
Love,
Penny

On 09/02/2009, Chris P said ...

All of my thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.

On 09/02/2009, Julia Wood said ...

God bless you all.

On 09/02/2009, Carol said ...

Oh Susan, my heart just aches for you and your family. Know that lots of good thoughts are being sent for you.

On 09/02/2009, Lettie said ...

My sweet friend, I am so sorry for your loss. I wish I knew how to ease the pain you are feeling. I will continue to say prayers for you and your family.

On 09/02/2009, Deb said ...

Susan ~ many, many prayers for YOU as you carry on. I think we all (in a very miniscule way compared to you) have followed with you on this journey, and we all feel your sorrow tonight. Blessings to you, my friend.

On 09/02/2009, Gretchen said ...

Susan, I am so sorry. You have my deepest sympathy. I have kept you both in my thoughts during this whole time Vann was in the hospital. May you find peace and comfort. My thoughts are with you and your family.

On 09/02/2009, Pam said ...

Oh my Susan. I am so very sorry for you and your family. It seems it all happened so fast. My thoughts and prayers are with you. I have been thinking so much of lately.

God Bless.
Pam

On 09/02/2009, niki said ...

I am so very sorry for your loss.

"...the simple fact is that you miss him; hoping, wherever he may be, that he sails among the angels, untethered and at peace."
quote from Sue Grafton, author

God bless you.

On 09/02/2009, Kristine said ...

Oh sweetie I am sorry. I can't pretend that I know how you feel. My love and prayers are with you and the family.

On 09/02/2009, Trudy Neill of Windemere Farm said ...

Susan and family, I am at a loss to help you from so far away. I am so terribly sorry. Please know we send our heartfelt sympathy and will continue to hold you up with prayer from here. God bless, Trudy and Dave.

On 09/02/2009, quiltmom( anna) said ...

Dear Susan,
My thoughts and prayers are with you and yours at this challenging time. I know how hard that Vann battled this horrible disease- My sincere condolences to you all.
May you find yourself surrounded by the warmth and love of your loved ones.
Warmest regards,
Anna

On 09/02/2009, Jewel said ...

My thoughts are with you and may you be comforted.

On 09/02/2009, Lavender Dreams said ...

We are very sorry for your loss. Our prayers are with you during this sad time. God bless you and your family.

On 09/02/2009, mellenewing said ...

I am so sorry for your loss. I can across this blog from another blog sometime back. I continued to follow because it reminded me of my life. I loss my husband in 2006 from lung cancer. I know how much you and your family are hurting but also rejoicing with the knowledge that Vann is in heaven. We will continue to pray for you.

On 09/02/2009, Debra Spincic said ...

Susan, I am so sorry for you and Sophie. I have been checking daily and I never wanted to see this message.

Rest in Peace, Vann. We loved you through the writings of your lovely soulmate. You will be missed.

On 09/02/2009, Joie Sasnett said ...

Susan, you and Vann and your family have been in my prayers for sometime now. You still are. I know this is a very difficult time but just remember that God has his arms around you. He will not let you down.

Joie

On 09/02/2009, Linda said ...

Lord, love him up real big. And keep your loving arms close around Susan.

On 09/02/2009, Donya said ...

Susan you dont know me but I feel like I know you and your husband . I have been following your blog for sometime and I am so very, very sorry to hear that Vann passed away. My heart goes out to you and your family.

On 09/02/2009, *karendianne. said ...

Oh Susan, my heart goes out to you, my spirit leaps through the page to get to you and hug you. May you find strength and love in the whispering of the wind, the rising of the sun and every healing prayer send out to you.

*karendianne.

On 09/02/2009, Joyce said ...

Susan, I have thought of you all day. My heart is breaking for you. I am so grateful that you and Vann found each other and had many wonderful, love-filled years together. It just ended way too soon. I pray that our Jehovah Rapha will heal your heart. Love you..Joyce

On 09/02/2009, Jackie said ...

Vann has received the ultimate healing!

Precious in the sight of the LORD is the death of his saints (Psalms 116:15).

My prayers are with you and your family and friends!

On 09/02/2009, Christie said ...

Oh my...I am so sorry. I've read your blog for awhile and have been praying often. I will continue to do so.

On 09/02/2009, Kelly Ann said ...

May the peace and love of God be with you and your family.

On 09/02/2009, carol fun said ...

I have checked in on your blog every day for quite a while and every time as I waited for it to load on my old slow computer I said a prayer for you and Vann. I hope that you will find comfort in knowing that so many people were remembering you and Vann. May God surround you with his love.

carol fun

On 09/02/2009, maple leaf said ...

Dear Susan, I hope it helps to know that, even strangers from another country are thinking about you and your family and your enormous loss today. Take care.

On 09/02/2009, LaurieC said ...

I have followed your blog for awhile now, and never posted. I am so sorry to read about Vann's passing. Your memories will help sustain you during this difficult time. My prayers for you have have been, and will continue.

On 09/02/2009, Beverly said ...

Susan, I have no words, but you must know how heart-broken we are for all of you.

Continue to look to guide for guidance, because he is looking on each of you with love.

Dear Vann is with our Savior.

On 09/02/2009, Thimbleanna said ...

Oh Susan, I'm so very sorry. May you and your family find peace and comfort in the coming days.

On 09/02/2009, Tina Chamberlain said ...

I am so sorry to hear about Vann.

On 09/02/2009, Michele said ...

Sending you some healing vibes. I'm so sorry for your loss. May you heal day by day and take every day with renewed blessings and wonderful memories. Remember the funny things first and foremost!

On 09/02/2009, Kate said ...

Oh Susan - my deepest sympathy to you. Sending love and prayers for your heart and comfort.

Kate

On 09/02/2009, Barbara Anne said ...

Oh, dear Susan, Blessing on you and all who love Vann. Deepest sympathy.

"Those we love are with the Lord and the Lord has promised to be with us. If they are with Him and He is with us, they cannot be far away."
- Peter Marshall

My prayer are with you all.

Grace and peace - Barbara

On 09/02/2009, Julie said ...

I am so sorry too. May many hugs and love surround each moment and day to come. I pray peace and love for you.

On 09/02/2009, Christi said ...

Dear Susan,
You don't know me but I feel like I know you and Vann from your blog. I first started reading from a link from another quilting blog and thought you and Vann were such wonderful people! I have followed your journey since and I am just heartbroken. You have been in my prayers and I am so, so sorry. If there's anything any of your virtual friends and blog readers can do to help you during this time, please reach out to us. - Christi

On 09/02/2009, djbvenne@hotmail.com said ...

Hmmm...where to start. I read Sharon's Red Geranium blog and was sent here. I am an oncology nurse. I have no idea what or how your beloved Vann died. Though I am familiar with death: through my occupation and the loss of my beloved husband, Vince. God, it stinks. But, God is good. He is there for you, now and in the future. Even when you get mad at Him, He is there. Your Vann is there. You will feel God and Vann's presence. Honest, you will! After this time of numbness, and the funeral arrangements, and the reading of the will and the settling of matters, you will feel scared, alone and indecisive. But God will be there. You will feel their presence. And you will be ok. If ever you need to talk, call me....darlynn 815 222 5821.

On 09/02/2009, Tara said ...

So sad to see this :( Many prayers and hugs going out to you and your family.

On 09/02/2009, Mary Flynn said ...

Until you meet again...he is in a wonderful new home. He will be missed here on earth by all who loved him. God Bless you and your family.

On 09/02/2009, Michele said ...

Sending healing vibes your way. I'm so sorry for your great loss. May you remember the funny times and cherish those memories. I bet Vann would want it no other way. Take care.

On 09/02/2009, Jan Andrews said ...

I'm so sorry for your loss Susan. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers.

On 09/02/2009, Teresa said ...

My sincere love and concern are with you and your family. This is so hard to accept, no matter how prepared you may think you are. It will be surreal as you get through the next days and weeks but you are blessed with many friends to comfort and support you and a loving God to give you peace. My prayers are with you all.

On 09/02/2009, debbi said ...

My heart, hugs and prayers are with you and your family. Blessing to you all during this sad time.

On 09/02/2009, Deb said ...

Susan, I am so sad for you. Many prayers and strength being sent across the globe to help you through this time. This has been a long road you have travelled and it has been a hard road to travel also. Just know that even though Vann has turned the corner on this road, he is always travelling beside you through the rest of your journey by being in your heart and many many special memories. Hugs and love Deb, NZ

On 09/02/2009, Gayle said ...

I am so sorry to hear of your tremendous loss. I'm sending prayers and love through tears tonight.

On 09/02/2009, Dolores Tanner said ...

Oh, I am so sorry, Have been following your blog and praying for you both at this time

On 09/02/2009, Jean said ...

Susan: May the Lord's angels wrap you in their wings to give you peace and strength. I am so terribly sorry for your loss. I don't know you or Vann, but I could tell that you loved him very much.

On 09/02/2009, Linda said ...

Lord, love him up big. And keep your arms close around Susan.

On 09/02/2009, Marilyn said ...

I am so sorry for your loss.....prayers going up for you and
your family.

On 09/02/2009, Laurie said ...

Oh Susan, I'm so, so sorry.

On 09/02/2009, Patty said ...

Even as my heart breaks with the news of Vann's leaving this earth, it is filled with the knowledge that he is with God and no longer in pain. My prayers are with you and your family. Patty

On 09/02/2009, Pokey said ...

May you feel God's comfort at this time, you are in our thoughts and prayers. I hurt for your loss.

On 09/02/2009, Kathy Garcia said ...

God Bless you Susan. I am so sorry for your loss. Kathy

On 09/02/2009, Amie Tarpley said ...

I am so very sorry for your loss. Prayers to you and your family. Amie

On 09/02/2009, tami said ...

I am so sorry for your loss.

On 09/02/2009, Alison Gibbs said ...

Susan I am so sorry to read this sad news. My thoughts are with you and your sweet family on the passing of your darling Vann.
Alison

On 09/03/2009, Darlene said ...

So sorry to hear about your loss, Susan! Your love is now in God's hands and at peace. Take care!

On 09/03/2009, Eugenia said ...

Sharon sent me. I lost my sister to this thief nearly 20 years ago. I can not even imagine what you must be going through. I do know that our loved ones live on in our hearts and memories.

I pray that you will be able to help others through your experience because that is the only positive I can see in the suffering.

May your entire family be surrounded with love in this most difficult and may His light and mercy lighten your heart for we are never alone.

On 09/03/2009, julie said ...

may your beloved always rest peacefully, and may you find the courage and strength needed during this sad time.
hugs,
julie

On 09/03/2009, Wendy said ...

My heart goes out to you. I've followed your blog for several months and have kept you and your husband in my prayers. God bless you with comfort.

On 09/03/2009, Perry said ...

I am so sorry to hear of your loss, Susan. I don't know what to say other than that. I know you will miss him greatly.

On 09/03/2009, Julie in WA, USA said ...

Dear Susan, I am praying for you at this time of loss in your life. Your relationship with Vann as shared on this blog has been a testimony of genuine love and commitment. Thanks for sharing that with us. May the Lord comfort you and your family.

On 09/03/2009, Bonnie said ...

Susan, my thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.
Blessings,
Bonnie

On 09/03/2009, Renee said ...

Thinking of you Susan ((Hugs))

On 09/03/2009, alexandrine said ...

I'm so sorry for you and your family.
Blessings.

On 09/03/2009, Lynette said ...

My heart goes out to you, he is at peace. Please take the love that is sent here to help you heal. God bless.

On 09/03/2009, Robyn said ...

Susan, I don't know you personally but I want to offer my sincere condolences on your loss.
Warm friendship hugs from Australia,
Robyn xx

On 09/03/2009, Joan said ...

Susan my thoughts and prayers are with you and your family at this time.

On 09/03/2009, Jack said ...

Heartfelt condolences. I really loved and admired that guy. He was more of a brother than a Dad-like figure to me. Love to you all.

On 09/03/2009, Glenda Downing said ...

Susan, Eddie called yesterday about Vann. I'm so very sorry for your loss. Hunter loved him like a grandfather. I know he will miss him terribly also. You and your family are in our prayers. Glenda

On 09/03/2009, Debbie said ...

Oh, Susan. May God's peace be with you. You're in my heart and prayers.

Blessings,

Debbie

On 09/03/2009, Karen said ...

I'm so sorry for your loss and will keep you and your family in my thoughts and prayers.

Karen

On 09/03/2009, Covered Porches said ...

Hold tight to your faith -- You are in our prayers... what an example of of love you and Vann both are....God Bless....

On 09/03/2009, Danny Heisner said ...

Susan, we are so saddened by the loss of Vann. He was such a Godly man and rock in the neighborhood. Becky and I and the kids will miss him so and are much better off for having known him. I went home and wrote a little tribute to him.

Today we lost a Godly man,
our caring friend and neighbor, Vann.
He and Sophie went on patrol,
to keep us safe, that was his goal.
Now he's patrolling from above,
looking after us in love.
We mourn the loss of a man so great
and yet we still can celebrate.
For him there now is no more pain.
There isn't any suffering.
He's singing praises to his Lord,
who died for him and whose blood poured.
He's meeting all the saints of old
and walking on the streets of gold.
He's touring that beautiful heavenly place,
and meeting Jesus face to face.
We miss your presence here on earth,
but celebrate your new found birth.
Vann, you left a legacy.
You lived a life for all to see.
For we could see the Christ in you,
a Godly man through and through.
On this earth we will abide,
'til we see you on the other side.

Vann, if I can be half the man you were, I'll be doing good.

Susie and the kids, God bless you! We are here for you if you need anything.

Danny, Becky, Jonathon, Andrew, Raeann, and Sam

On 09/03/2009, Libby Dillard said ...

Oh No! Susan, My heart and prayers are with you and your family. I am so, so sorry for your loss! Libby

On 09/03/2009, Mary Burn said ...

I am so sorry to learn about Vann's death. We just lost my husband's sister on Saturday and have felt God's presence thoughout the whole week. May you and your family feel the comfort of God and all your friends as they grieve his loss.
Mary

On 09/03/2009, Sarah N said ...

You are in my thoughts.

On 09/03/2009, cockermom said ...

I am so sorry for your loss. You are in our prayers. Donnie

On 09/03/2009, Sherry said ...

My Dear Susan,
My love, my prayers and comfort are being sent at this time to you and your dear family. I am so sorry for your loss. God has wrapped you in his arms and he will see you through this Susan. He walks right with you every step of the way. No more pain for Vann. God Bless you honey. Country hugs, Sherry

On 09/03/2009, Adrienne said ...

Dear Susan -
I am so sorry for your loss - I know Vann was an incredible person to each of you and my prayers are with you and your family. Please know that there are many of us here, holding you up to the Father for comfort and strength through these days and the days ahead. Be blessed with your memories and be sure to share them with each other often.
~Adrienne~

On 09/03/2009, CarlaH said ...

Susan, my deepest condolences to you and your family. Words cannot express how I felt when I saw this post. Like so many of your readers I feel is if I come know you and have been following you and Vann as you dealt so graciously with this terrible illness. My thoughts are with you.

On 09/03/2009, Joanna said ...

I have just enjoyed 10 minutes of reading through your posts about the journey you and your hubby have been on. I hope you can feel some peace at this hardest of times. Hugs to you xxxoooxxx

On 09/03/2009, Taryn said ...

My heart aches for you and your family. May you find peace in your happy memories of Vann.

On 09/03/2009, Karla said ...

Susan,
I'm so very sorry to hear of your loss. May God be with you and your family. Vann has gone home to peace.
Karla

On 09/03/2009, Rian said ...

Dearest Susan, I am so sorry this happened. I am saddened by the loss of this wonderful soul. Please know that my thoughts and prayers are with you during this difficult time.

On 09/03/2009, Amy said ...

I am so sorry for your loss. I'm praying for you and your family in this difficult time.

On 09/03/2009, Ramey Channell said ...

Vann Is Home!

That was the message from your blog on Tuesday, and I do believe it's true today. Bless him, and Amy and Philip and Suzie!

On 09/03/2009, Mary said ...

My prayers are with you Susan...I'm so sorry you have lost your husband, but you know where he is now, and you will meet again. I pray you are comforted today, as the Lord reveals His great love for you, his child, in your sorrow. Bless you, Susan.

Mary

On 09/03/2009, Jean C. said ...

Hang in there.... your Father in Heaven knows of your loss and may he have his loving arms around you and your sweet family.

On 09/03/2009, Doris said ...

I am so sorry. You and Vann are a beautiful love story. I know you will cherish all the wonderful times! Doris

On 09/03/2009, Mal said ...

I am so sorry for your loss. I'm thinking about you at this sad time.

On 09/03/2009, bj said ...

Susan, you and your family are in my thoughts and prayers. May Our Father in Heaven give you the strength and courage to cope with this. May HE send you comfort and grace.
love, bj

On 09/03/2009, Alice I. said ...

Susan, I was sad to read about the loss of your dear husband Vann. Please know that you and yours are in my prayers. May you find comfort and strength in Him.

On 09/04/2009, Lallee said ...

My heart is heavy for your loss, Susan. May God pour out His peace and love on you and your family in the abundance He is so able to give. May you know His presence at every turn in your future.
{{{{{HUGS}}}}}
Lallee

On 09/04/2009, Diane said ...

All my love and good wishes for you and your family. Such a beautiful soul, he made you happy, who wouldn't admire a man who could do that? He will be missed by many who never had the opportunity to shake his hand and thank him.
:Diane

On 09/04/2009, Rachel Murphree said ...

Susan I am just so very very sorry. What terrible news. My thoughts are with you. Rachel

On 09/04/2009, Mollye said ...

Dear Susan, I have nothing original to add. You are in my prayers and my heart is saddened for your loss.

On 09/04/2009, AwtemNymf said ...

Susan-
My heartfelt condolences! So holding you in prayers and lots of hugs!
{HUGS}

On 09/04/2009, Colleen said ...

I am so, so sorry for your loss.

On 09/05/2009, Pat said ...

Susan, I am so sorry to hear about Vann. Just from reading your blog, I knew that you shared a special oneness and always will. He was brave and yes, he is now with his Father. God bless you and your family now and in the days and weeks to come. Love to you. Pat

On 09/05/2009, Carol R said ...

I am so sorry to hear of Vann's passing. It is never easy to lose someone, but when that someone is your best friend, it is doubly hard. I wish you peace in knowing Vann is with the Lord and waiting for you on the other side.

On 09/17/2009, Patti Koosed said ...

Oh my Susan, I had no idea you lost Vann. I am shocked. I thought he was doing better.

I am so sorry, this was so sudden but a blessing that he did not have to suffer for along time. My heart goes out to you God Bless you and may Vann rest in peace in the loving arms of our Lord.

God BLess You my friend
Patti
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Tuesday, September 1, 2009

Vann Is Home!

After we spent the morning rearranging and reconfiguring the bedroom (and totally destroying the rest of the house), we've got him home.

Gene helped Phillip move our big old king-size bed into the basement and move in a twin bed, that Gene had in his attic. Then the home health people delivered the adjustable bed, shower chair, and other goodies shortly after Vann got home. Then our home nurse came and stayed with us for a couple of hours, asking and answering questions and giving us tons of information.

Andy, Amy, and Phillip were here during the nurse visit. And Gene, Nolan, Paul, and Ashleigh all visited before the nurse came. Lori stopped by for a second to deliver some cards. We're all exhausted, especially poor Vann.

No time or energy to talk more. Got to go see about Vann then settle down for a while.

This post was migrated from the old blog. To see the comments on the original post, CLICK HERE. To add a new comment, click "Post a Comment", below.

On 09/01/2009, Red Geranium Cottage said ...

Susan, I'm glad Vann is home where he can rest comfortably. You take care of yourself too.

On 09/01/2009, Alison Gibbs said ...

HI Susan I am so happy to hear that Vann is home. With all the adjustments made to the house things will be much easier for you both. Take care and don't forget to look after yourself as well
Alison

On 09/02/2009, Debbie said ...

Hooray! I know you'll both rest better being together. I'm so happy!

On 09/02/2009, *karendianne. said ...

This is joyous news, Susan. And I'm so happy for Vann, too. I know he is thankful to be where he is comfortable and can really REST! Peace be with you!, *karendianne.

On 09/02/2009, Donna said ...

Thank goodness for both of you. There is nothing like being home.

On 09/02/2009, Marie said ...

So glad he's home! Let the real resting begin! Home Sweet Home indeed.

On 09/02/2009, Horace Hudson said ...

Great news!! Tanks for keeping us posted. Will be calling later for a chat.

On 09/02/2009, Barbara Anne said ...

Happy happy joy joy!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Welcome home, Vann! Happy dancing with you, Susan! I know Sophie has been all over the place with happiness and has probably wagged her tail right off!

Cheers for family and friends who can move furniture, who deliver love in envelopes and casserole dishes, and who help do whatever needs to be done.

So glad you have reinforcements to make this all work out well for Vann and for you.

Do you have two twin sized quilts in your closet or do you need to make two immediately?

Happy hugs!

On 09/02/2009, Sandy said ...

Oh good, praise the Lord, Vann got home...will continue to keep ya'll in my prayers and thoughts..

On 09/02/2009, Ruth Landon said ...

So pleased to hear that Vann came home. It'll be so much easier for you all.
Many prayers coming you way.
Ruth

On 09/02/2009, Lisa D. said ...

I am so happy that you have Vann home!

On 09/02/2009, Kai said ...

Did you hear that? It SOUNDED like a WOLF howling! But it was just ME, hollering, "WOOOOOOOOOHOOOOOOO!" Susan, I'm SO happy! I know you AND Vann will rest a thousand times better TOGETHER. Do remember to get some rest for yourself because even if you aren't necessarily doing anything physically heavy, all the changes and things will wear you out. My heart sings for you both this morning! I LOVE YOU!

On 09/02/2009, Gayle said ...

I'm so glad he is home. Sending prayers your way.

On 09/02/2009, Nicole said ...

Smiling here, at the good news that Vann is home. Now he can start to get some real rest. And you too!

On 09/02/2009, Lallee said ...

So glad to hear this! Hope you are feeling better.
Hugs,
Lallee

On 09/02/2009, Gretchen said ...

So glad to hear that Vann is home. Hope you both can rest and recover--there is no place like home :) Sending good wishes and speedy get wells.

On 09/02/2009, Julie in WA, USA said ...

Each morning I visit your site, praying for great news! Well, this is great news; I am sure Vann will be more comfortable at home, and you will be more settled without having to travel back and forth from the hospital. I will continue to pray for you and your husband!

On 09/02/2009, valerie said ...

I have not been keeping up too well. I am going to have to go back and see what all has went on. I am praying for you all.

On 09/02/2009, Beverly said ...

I know he must be glad to be home. There truly is no place like home. Be kind to yourselves.

I'm praying hard for each of you.

On 09/02/2009, Loribelle said ...

There is...no place...like Home. I sure do love you Suzie Q. and am so blessed to have you and your family in my life. "Woof Woof!" (that's Daisy agreeing with me wholeheartedly!) Love and peace...
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About Me

Hi. My name is Susan, and I'm a lover of all things fabric related. When I first started sewing, in my teens, I made clothes. I learned to sew on a beautiful Singer treadle machine. I remember the first garment I made was a dress for the 4-H dress review when I was in Junior High.

In my 20s and 30s, I made almost all my and my children's clothes. I added quiltmaking in my late 20s, and gradually drifted away from garment making. I still make the occasional wearable, but most of my sewing time is spent on quilts.

I also enjoy reading and occasionally pick up the crochet hook or knitting needles. I invite you to visit here often. I'd like to share my interests with you.