I'm sitting here at 10:30 in the morning worrying and obsessing about all that I have to do this month--starting today. I have to go grocery shopping. I've squeaked by as long as I can and really have to make the trip. This is one of the hardest chores I have to do. Probable THE hardest.
Then next week I have a dentist appointment and an appointment for my yearly Ob/gym checkup. Two appointments in one week!
Also this month, I have to buy tires, get the oil changed, and have my car cleaned--because the last weekend of the month, Andy and I are going to the beach. Now that should be something to look forward to. But it just feels like another task on top of everything else. For one thing, I'll have to take the dogs. Don't ask why, just trust me. I have to take the dogs. Other options have been tried in the past and turned into minor disasters. The dogs are going. The only place at the condo where they are allowed to walk is a small strip of lawn between the condo and the busy street. It is definitely not a dog-friendly place.
Most of you probably are wondering what's the big deal? Doesn't seem like such a terrible schedule, does it? But if you deal with fibromyalgis, chronic fatigue, or several other chronic disorders, I bet you understand. I saw a cartoon on a fibromyalgia website this morning. It read, "I want to do something today, but I can't. I did a thing yesterday." SPOT ON.
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On 09/12/2015, Barbara Anne said ...
Oh, sweet girlfriend, scoot over on this bench 'cause I'll sit with you. Can we recline and put our feet up, too? That would be more restful not that we'd feel rested when we stood up, of course.
I never make two appts. in a week and didn't when I was making AMIL's appts. Fatigue is real and you cannot fight it. I encourage you to postpone one of them to a time convenient for you. The office you choose to call will be fine with your rescheduling as long as you give them as much notice as possible.
Perhaps Jesse can get the tires and the car taken care of? It seems to me there's no need to clean the car because it will transport dogs and will need cleaning after you get back from the beach anyway. Right?
Does any grocery store in your area deliver? It's worth finding out.
Lastly, as my Granny used to say, don't borrow trouble. Worry about the future doesn't change anything except to add misery to today and that's no fun.
Big hugs!
On 09/13/2015, Denise in PA said ...
Susan, I mostly want to just send hugs to you. But, I also had the thought that a grocery delivery service might be available?? I hope you feel better very soon and can enjoy your time away at the end of the month.
On 09/14/2015, Pesky Patti said ...
I'm in your boat. It seems like forever since I have felt any joy. Thinking of ya....
On 09/14/2015, Pat said ...
That quote explains it very well! Thought I would not make it out of Walmart today. Had brain cloud and tried to pay for my cash back! Just look forward to and enjoy your trip, and like the previous quote - just do one day at a time.
On 09/14/2015, Pat said ...
PS - Amazon has Prime Pantry. I've started ordering heavy things like detergents, coffee, even big packs of toilet tissue. Pretty big box for $5.99 delivery and they have waived that a couple of times. At least I don't have to carry it but one time - into the house. That's begun to be a big deal - 4 steps...
On 09/15/2015, Debbie Price said ...
Oh Susan, I know how you are feeling! I can get myself all worked up about the need to do so many things, which of course, starts the ol' fibro reality check. I think it may finally be hitting my older girls that what I have really is a life changing thing. Laura already knows and unfortunately, I think she is also heading down the fibro path.
I agree with Barbara Anne, see if Jesse can take the car and do cancel one of the appts. if possible. Laura has a weekly doctor appointment and I am exhausted when I get home. It's not even my appointment! This fibro is a pain in the tush sometimes.
Soft hugs,
Deb
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