First we had to fall back. And my body and brain haven't even got used to that time change. Now this week, Jesse went on night shift for the first time. Another time change. He seems to be doing quite well with it, but me, not so much. I don't know if I'm coming or going. I'm waking up no later than 4:00, and not able to go back to sleep. And then I'm so tired by evening I can hardly make it till bedtime. Last night I went to sleep just as "Castle" was getting interesting. I'm glad I had the foresight to record it, knowing I might not make it all the way through.
It doesn't help that Skipper insists on sleeping with me, under the covers, snuggled up. Then at least one time during the night, Taco jumps up on the bed and Skipper goes postal on him. Which of course wakes me up and I have to get back to sleep if possible.
Jesse's is on swing shift on his new job. That means that he works some days and some nights. But looking at his schedule printout, there seems to be no rhyme or reason to it. He works four days and off three days, works three nights and off five days, works three days and off two days, etc., etc. There's no pattern. So I guess I'll just have to get used to being ever on a changing schedule.
And don't even bother to tell me that I should let Jesse go his way and I go mine. When somebody lives in the house with me, their schedule effects me. I've never been able to ignore people coming and going in my house. When my stepdaughter Amy lived with us and went to school days and worked nights, I got very little sleep. I think I worried Vann about crazy not being able to sleep until she got home.
Speaking of Vann, today is our 19th wedding anniversary--and I'm not sad. Every year since he died, on our anniversary I have been extremely sad. But not so much today. Of course, I miss him and wish he were here. But no depression today.
One bit of good news. Since I've been back on the Cymbalta, only a few days, my pain level has dropped a bunch. Just in time for our family Thanksgiving.
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On 11/26/2013, Barbara Anne said ...
Happy Anniversary! I believe that love is for always so this is a time to remember the joy. May you feel Vann's closeness and love in your heart.
Bless your heart and other parts about your sleeping with one ear open to keep track of who is coming/going. Have you thought about keeping a tranquil CD playing all night as white noise? Something by Enya or the decades old "The Earth, the Sea, and the Sky" would appeal to me.
As far as the pets are concerned, is it possible to keep the cats out of your bedroom at night so nobody goes postal as you sleep serenely? Even if they're in a distant part of the house with cozy bedding, food, and the litter box, it might be better than you missing sleep.
Cheers that you're feeling better!!
Hugs!
On 11/27/2013, Diane Wingo said ...
I haven't gotten use to the time change either. Same as you have trouble staying up at night and then waking up too early. Congrads on your anniversary, a special day, glad your not sad, maybe healing a bit. Have a Happy Thanksgiving
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